Autumnxcharlotte

Chapter1: charlottes struggling

⚠️TW⚠️ $H, drinking, smoking and ED

Charlottes pov:
Me and Marjorie are in the middle of an argument and it's really not helping me with anything that's going on and she's put me in Reece's nursery indefinitely. Because she thinks I'm cheating on my husband with Mia which isn't true me and my husband divorced 5 months ago and me and Mia just talk about our lives and help each other through it.

I'm in the baby room and I got to pick one the baby's up because their fussing and I wince in pain because of my arms and Reece walks in asking me to go to his office with him and my head starts going in circles. 'Has he noticed my arms' 'does he know about my divorce' 'has he noticed I'm not myself' these are all the questions going round my head and then I see Marjorie stood there in the office.

"What's Marjorie doing here" I get defensive and fold my arms. "My love I'm so sorry for everything I said your a grown woman and it's none of my business who you choose to be with or not I shouldn't have said those things to you." Marjorie says stepping closer per to me and try to touch my arm to comfort me but I pull away and wince out in pain and she looks at my arm. "Are you ok my love? Marjorie asks me.  "You know what no Marjorie I'm not okay but your to oblivious and wrapped up in yourself you can't see what's right in front of you and you just jump to conclusions. I raise my voice at her. "What do you mean my love?" Marjorie asks taking my hand I push her off and she stumbles into Reece. "I mean Marjorie me and my husband divorced 5 months ago and are in the middle of a custody battle I might lose my children but you, you're to blind to see any of that and what's really happening, I've been cutting, drinking and smoking to deal with it all." I say and Marjorie stands there covering her mouth. I said to much I think to myself and I run out to the bathroom and lock myself in one of the stalls.

I take my blade out of my phone case and roll my sleeves up and drag it across my arms and then I here the door open and I check my phone it only 7:30am and the only people here are me,Reece and Marjorie so it must be one of them in here. I garb some tissue to clean my arms but then I freeze. " Charlotte I know it's you open the door." I hear autumn say. I can't move I can't clean my arms or pull my sleeves down I'm frozen still. "Char open the door or I'm coming in. " autumn says in a more stern voice but I'm still stuck frozen on the spot me I know the door is going to be kicked in by autumn. "That's it char in coming in" autumn says and kicks the door in she looks at me and the at my arms. "Oh char come here" autumn says and open her arms and I just fall into her embrace and I start crying. "Shh it's okay I've got you char it's okay." Autumn says while stroking hair trying to clam me down but I go into a panic attack and struggling to breathe. No this can't be happening not in front of autumn I think to myself. "Can't breathe." I mange to get out between sobs. Autumn stands up and pulls me up with her and walks to the office which is directly across from the bathroom and arms are still on show. I see Marjorie and Reece standing there looking at me and then my arms. But I really don't care autumn sits me on the sofa and sits in front me trying to calm me down but I can't and then I could barely hear anything and then it all goes dark. "She'll be okay in a minute this used to happen to me all the time." I hear autumn say and then I couldn't hear anything.

*10 minutes later*

I wake up in autumn's lap and I see Marjorie and Reece at either side of me and look down at arms that are still show and I look away ashamed. Can we go outside?" I look at autumn and ask her. "We can soon but we need to clean your arms, who do you want to do it." Autumn asks me. "You please autumn." I reply. Autumn just nods at Reece and Marjorie and I sit up. "Well wait out in the car." Reece says leaving with Marjorie.

"We're going to the park across the road okay" autumn asks me bandaging my arms. "Okay but I need get something from my car before we go." I say not wanting her to know what it is. She nods and takes my hand I grab and we walk out autumn goes her car and takes out a bag out and puts in Reece's. I go to my car and put the vodka and weed in my bag and autumn comes over. "You ready to go." Autumn says looking at my bag suspiciously. "Yeah let's go." I say and we get in Reece's car and go to the park and sit the bench I pull my drink out that is a quarter filled lemonade and rest vodka.