Touch your Heart

VI.

A series of beeps echo in the room and after four beeps the door swings open with Hyewon rushing to her couch, still filled with anger each step she takes. Jisung, her manager watches behind her, afraid to mess with Hyewon ever since he picked her up from her workplace, he bites anxiously, unaware of what to do to calm the celebrity. Hyewon on the couch plants her face in a cushion and lets a scream out, a lengthy and still loud one, her hair is ruffled as she sits up on the couch, staring into nothing with anger projected in her face.

"THAT GUY, I REALLY HATE HIM!" With a quick motion she looks at her manager, scaring him with her sudden movement. "Like can there be any guy like him in this world because I don't know if I can stand another one of him! I get that he's mad because I am late, I really understand that, also how I dress as a secretary but can't he be a little generous and at least let me know the basics instead of getting mad at me? I didn't even know I was going to work as a secretary in the first place!"

Her constant and simultaneous rambling about Yongwoo leaves her manager in shambles, unable to keep up with everything. Her pent up emotion makes it even more hard to understand every word she's saying, but being her manager for a long time now, he seems to have adapted to her antics, however he still doesn't even know what to say or do, does she need a listener? Perhaps a person backing her up? Or maybe someone to console her? Jisung doesn't know anymore and just speaks what's in his mind.

Jisung joins Hyewon on the couch. "Y-yeah! Why is that guy like that?! Do you want me to do something, huh?! Just tell me and I'll do it! What's his issue anyway? Like he must have an issue, that's why he's like that!"

Hyewon once more averted her gaze from him, looking into nowhere whilst holding a cushion in her arms. "I don't know! He probably hates me or something!" She throws the cushion to the other couch in the room and ruffles her hair then releases a loud huff in frustration. Her neat hair is nowhere to be seen anymore and is replaced by a bird's nest.

"Hate the Hyewon? What is..." He pauses for a second after realizing that her image is also known for being hated. "What are you saying? How can anyone hate you?"

Hyewon shifts from the couch and faces her manager once again still holding the cushion in her arms. "Right?! I don't care anymore, I don't like his drama or anything related to him! I'm leaving that work!" She expresses everything with her gestures, her eyes wander around as she speaks her words and ends up looking at her manager, hoping he'll back her up with her decision.

"WHAT? Come on, let's not jump to that conclusion just yet. Don't say anything that you'll regret, Hyewon."

Hyewon groans at her manager's words. She plops herself back on the couch with the cushion in her embrace. She watches the ceiling in silence having no idea what to say regarding the topic.

"I'll leave you now for tonight. You need space and time to rest in order to calm yourself. I'll be back tomorrow to pick you up. What time is it again?" Jisung places every Hyewon's bag on the table and slowly stands up from the couch before walking his way towards the door.

"Eight." She answered lowly.

"Okay, I'll pick you up before eight, so be ready by then."

Silence has filled the entire room after she heard the door shut. No one's around anymore, she's alone in her house and Hyewon is still in the process of selecting her choice, whether she should leave the firm or not. Even after a few minutes of resting on the couch, she still can't decide what to pick between the two options, eventually she sits back up to the couch once more and decides to watch some entertainment videos on her television as a little distraction for her constantly running thoughts. Her hand reaches for the remote and uses it to open the television remotely.

Tens and hundreds of channels have been scrolled and viewed so far yet there was nothing that has satisfied Hyewon yet, it's been minutes scrolling and scrolling after one channel to another, she's losing hope to distract herself from her emotions or to at least entertain herself for the night. She gives up, not finding any single channel that catches her attention, without any options left she opens an application to her television. It takes a few seconds before the app finally loads and when it does instead of entertaining her, her eyes come across videos of her winning an award in earlier years of acting, also when she was in IZ*ONE and starting her acting career.

Distraction is not what she itches at the situation she wishes to aid anymore, all of her anger drained in an instant and immediately filled by longing and nostalgia. Her eyes stare at the video recommendations however her mind urges her to watch every video that she comes across. Unaware of her actions, she presses and plays the video. A smile has creeped up on her face along with tears that slowly fill her tear ducts and flow down her cheeks.

Hyewon is deeply in trance until she sniffs, her hands that were hugging the cushion touches her cheeks only to feel the trail her tears have left on her face. She chuckles as she realizes what's happening to her while tears are constantly escaping her eyes along with sniffles.

"Am I really crying now? Haha." A glance at her wet hands before she looks back on the screen of her past self, makes her find herself gasping for air. "I'll make a breakthrough. You can do this Hyewon!" She continuously watches videos of her where she was still that relevant in the entertainment industry.