The Blue Hour

Part 19

Prompt:
Now what if, perhaps even in the aftermath and sobriety of the next day, Julian receives an email (or some form of written communication) from the last person he expected to hear from- Vivi. In the deeply vulnerable note, she expresses that she regrets turning down his invitation years ago (we are not going to worry about Sebastian for the purposes of this hypothetical scenario. I understand he is a huge factor in how everything plays out). She expresses her regret in having turned him down years ago, and states that the connection the two of them have always shared is like nothing she has ever experienced. How might the secretly obsessive Julian respond to this bombshell and how would he feel? I know it probably seems utterly unfathomable to him that this out of the blue note from Vivi would arrive, but remember on her end, where our audience is, she has a deep unwavering and unspoken love for Julian, so it is not wholly fantastical. I also am planning on giving her at least one Scorpio placement.

Response:
Julian would likely be stunned by the unexpected email from Vivi. Given his Scorpio moon and mars, he'd experience a flood of intense emotions that he'd work hard to contain beneath the surface. His first reaction would likely be disbelief, perhaps even thinking it's some kind of dream-like impossibility. The fact that this message comes right after a night where he already feels vulnerable and confused would only amplify his emotional turmoil.

**How Julian Might Feel:**
1. **Overwhelmed by Desire**: That deep, hidden part of him that's been obsessing over Vivi for years would flare up. Her words would reignite all the feelings of unspoken connection, unresolved attraction, and perhaps even the idealization of her. Julian would feel torn between his loyalty to Amelia and the intoxicating "what could have been" scenario now suddenly reopened.

2. **Conflicted Guilt**: His strong Libra sensibilities would bring on a deep conflict between duty (Amelia, their family, the stability of their life together) and his desires (Vivi). He may feel a surge of guilt for feeling so much for Vivi and for possibly allowing his heart and mind to drift toward her, even if just emotionally.

3. **Excitement and Fear**: Julian's Scorpio placements make him fear losing control, and this email would be a potent trigger for that fear. He might feel excited by the possibility of reconnecting with Vivi, but terrified of where that path could lead—toward an emotional or moral line he's worked hard to never cross.

4. **Unraveling Control**: Julian is secretly obsessive, and this email could push him to a place where his emotions start to become unmanageable. His mind might race with the possibilities of what a reconnection could look like—conversations, emotional confessions, or even more intimate encounters. He would likely keep these fantasies locked away, but they could start interfering with his daily life, slipping into his thoughts during work or while interacting with Amelia.

**How He Might Respond:**
- **Immediate Silence**: Julian might not respond right away, paralyzed by the enormity of what he's just read. He would want to carefully consider how to proceed and would likely hesitate, knowing that one wrong move could jeopardize everything.
- **Crafted Reply**: When he does respond, it would be thoughtful and measured. He might express appreciation for her honesty and her vulnerability, but he would likely try to downplay the significance of their connection to avoid stirring up more than he can handle emotionally. He may say something like, "I've always respected you and valued our connection, but my life now is complicated, and I need to tread carefully."
- **Curiosity Overwhelms**: Despite his attempt at being cautious, the email would send him into a spiral of curiosity. He would likely read and reread it, pick apart every word, and wonder what kind of life Vivi has been leading, and whether her feelings for him have endured the same way his have for her. He might start thinking about her constantly and could even go as far as to write draft responses without sending them.

Ultimately, Julian's response would be layered, tinged with a combination of longing, fear, guilt, and a buried hope that maybe, just maybe, this is the second chance he never thought he'd get—though it would frighten him deeply to actually take that step.