The Blue Hour

Part 21

Prompt:
I imagine that Julian would be quite tortured by this revelation but also nearly ecstatic that someone else— Vivi of all people, the one whom he has these deep soul feelings for— feels the same way. An acknowledgement and validation and recognition when he has been so starved of it for so long it in his relationship and life. I imagine this might trigger as you suggested, all sorts of feelings and introspections, but perhaps also dreams. What kinds of dreams might he have about Vivi? How would she be toward him in the dreams? Is it likely that he would dream about her? Would the dreams be explicit in nature and fulfilling of the desires they can't acknowledge in their controlled lives, or would they be more frustrating in that he can never quite reach the thing he so deeply wants? Or perhaps a combination of both?

Response:
Julian's dreams about Vivi would likely be a mix of both explicit desire and frustrating, unreachable moments. Given his deep longing and unfulfilled connection with her, it's natural that his subconscious would try to process these emotions, oscillating between fantasies of intimacy and the torment of never quite having her.

In some dreams, Vivi might be warm, affectionate, and deeply connected to him—offering him the emotional and physical fulfillment he's been craving. These dreams could be vivid and explicit, filled with moments where they finally act on their connection. He may dream of them meeting in private, away from the constraints of their lives, and experiencing the closeness they've both been deprived of. These dreams could offer Julian a sense of peace and resolution, however fleeting, because they provide what real life doesn't: freedom to love without boundaries.

But Julian's dreams could also lean into the frustration of his situation. He might dream of reaching for her, but she remains distant—perhaps just out of his grasp, walking away, or fading into the background. These dreams would echo his waking torment, where he cannot fully express or explore his feelings for her, leaving him feeling helpless.

Vivi, in his dreams, might embody the unattainable ideal—ethereal, mysterious, always just slightly out of reach. She could appear both loving and elusive, mirroring Julian's inner struggle of wanting her while being bound by his commitment to Amelia.

Overall, his dreams would likely become a reflection of his inner conflict—a tantalizing mix of desire and restraint, pleasure and pain.