A Cup of Fate

11th Phase: New York, A City Anew

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11th Phase: New York, A City Anew

“People go to LA to "find themselves", they come to New York to become someone new.” 
― Lindsey Kelk, I Heart New York

New York. It's such a lovely name for a wonderful city. They say that New York is the city of dreams. People would kill to be in New York and have their lifelong dream to be fulfilled. It must be nice living in New York, waking up to the towering buildings, seeing the Empire State and bright lights every single waking morning. 

It’s 9:35 AM. The hotel room is empty because the boys and Lou have to go to the MSG Arena for today’s show. I should be with them, actually, but I choose to stay in the hotel room because they woke me up at 6:00 AM and that’s too damn early for a girl like me to be roaming around the city that never sleeps. I’d probably go later and watch the show.

I promised Niall that I’ll watch even if I don’t want to because there would probably be thousands of screaming girls at the show. And being a claustrophobic person, large crowds are ahuge no-no. But, a promise is a promise. I'm not the kind of person who'll lead someone on something I know I couldn't do. And in fact, I kind of owe Niall a favor for touring me around London and for keeping me as his friend when I barely know anyone in the land of British showers.

After that day, we actually manage to create this friendly relationship. He sort of became my guy best friend. I mean, he is my food buddy and he always manages to make me smile all the time. If he’s not my friend, I’d probably fall for him already like all the other girls would. But, he is my friend and I will keep this friendship intact. I can’t manage to break this wonderful friendship off. Not again.

I pick out some clothes to wear outside. The weather is freezing in New York since winter's been springing up already with few droplets of snow drizzling outside my windowpane. I slide into my black pants, pull over a white blouse and a purple sweater and putting on a pair of black boots before leaving. I grab my coat hung on the clothes rack and head out of the room. I aimlessly stroll my way to the elevator. As I stand there silently, the elevator plays a familiar song.

~Oh I just wanna take you anywhere that you like. We can go out any day, any night. Baby I’ll take you there, take you there. Baby I’ll take you there, yeah.

I smile to the sound of the boys' voices singing in harmony. How I wish I can do the same. As other poeple see it, what they're doing is extremely fun like they already have a perfect life, but being with them, I realize how hard they work their asses off.

Yes, they travel a lot. And yes, they are lucky enough to be living their dreams, but what sucks about it is the fact of leaving. I can picture the people important to their life being left every single time. It must suck for them big time. Their absence makes nothing but an incomplete whole and the agonizing part there is the fact that you have to understand- that it is all for the better. You can't do anything to stop it. You don't have the upperhand. You just accept.

Ah, yes. Accept. Such a fine word. We accept the things we couldn't because we have to- we have to. We're forced to accept knowing that we don't make the decisions. And we keep on telling ourselves, it's for our good. I have to accept because it would make things better. But you know what? It doesn't. It might probably soothe the pain temporarily, but sooner or later reality will hit you in the back and make you realize that it's not getting any better. We just think it will- and we're all foolish enough to believe so.