Who Said Vampires Will Never Hurt You?

Chapter Eighteen - Kill This Venom From My Heart

Who Said Vampires Will Never Hurt You?

Chapter Eighteen - Kill This Venom From My Heart

"Thorn, I have to do this on my own." Gerard told me.

"No! You can't! Frank's strong; he's clever and he's mad. He' been a Vampire the longest - he's the leader, Gerard, you can't just go in and expect him to go down without a fight."

"Please, Thorn." Gerard begged, "I literally have to do this alone. You don't understand."

"No! I don't! Tell me! Make me understand! Please Gerard, I don't get it; why are you putting your life in so much danger; in risk?!"

"I-I...please, Thorn - don't understand then - just accept that this is what I am going to do and...please...please don't question it, else I might not have the guts to do it."

"Gerard you're talking like you're about to go off and never come back again!" I cried, trying to stop myself from crying. "You don't have to do this alone...please..." But I knew, even as I said it, I was only trying to convince myself - Gerard's mind was already all made up. His word was final.

"I'm doing this. I have to. Right now."

"No...please." I couldn't hold it in any longer and let the tears pour, "I'm so scared." I whimpered against Gerard's chest as he held me close. I wanted this all to be over; for this to never have happened.

I was so caught up in my own little world of sorrow that I nearly missed Gerard's tiny murmur of,

"Me too."

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Gerard had told me to stay where I was; he was only going to be around the corner. It confused me why he needed to be alone for this; I could merely guess. I know him and Frank are - or should I say where? - very close, and I can only speculate on how much of an emotional strain it all would have had on Gerard. That along with Mikey's death was enough to make anyone crazy.

I held my stake close to me as a substitute for Gerard's body as he left me. I already felt lost without him; it worried me slightly how I was so hung up and dependent on him.

Somehow, Gerard knew Frank would come. And Frank knew where Gerard was. How? It scared me. I needed to be there, to help Gerard defeat Frank. He won't be able to do it, I thought frantically to myself. He's going to back down - Frank's going to...going to...get him.

No!

I scrambled to my feet, retrieving my stake and trying to hold it tight in my shaking hands. It clattered to the floor once or twice as I was becoming panicked in fear for Gerard. It seemed like a millennium passed until finally the stake was in my slippery grasp, wedged in tight between my two hands and unable to slip.

I took a deep breath and peeked round the corner.

There was nothing there.

"...What...?" I breathed, looking on the walls, and floor and the ceiling for Gerard. No...don't tell me he ran off somewhere else! Goddamn.

"Gerard?" I asked, expecting no answer but still getting disappointed when I didn't get one.

Oh, God, where is he? He said he'd only be round the corner! I scrubbed my hand through my disgusting hair in frustration, instantly wishing I hadn't. We still hadn't had showers...and I don't think we were going too.

I know I was probably just getting overprotective and silly, but Vampires are serious beasts, we need to regain caution around them. I shouldn't have let Gerard go off alone! I should have convinced him he needs my help. The guys will never forgive me if anything happens...if anything happens...