MC Devil Dogs #5 Finally Someone To Love

Dinner with Brick and Penny

Tank

      I am excited to see the home today.  I pull up about fifteen minutes early.  I can really see myself here.  The real estate agent pulls up and I see the minute she realizes I am a biker.  She takes hesitant steps toward me but I put on my Sunday go to church manners to introduce myself.  I see her relax and we both head toward the door to go in.  I walk into the living room and see it is not really big but it's cozy.  I see a small fireplace in the corner with a really nice wood mantle.  I walk on down the hall to see it's a two bedroom.  The master bedroom is really nice.  I like how it has a nice big window you can see the back yard through.  I walked into the master bath to see a huge tub with jets.  I think I have died and gone to heaven now.  I make my way to the other bedroom and it's a nice size.  I walk back to the other side because I am interested in seeing the kitchen.  I walk in to see it's has butcher block counter tops which is really nice touch.  I see the stove needs to be upgraded which is no big deal.  I walk into the utility room at the back door which also has the washer and dryer.  I open the back door to look closely to the back yard and I love it.  I notice it has a shed to the back of the property that I could turn into my own little workshop to work on my bike.  It feels like home.  It makes me feel peaceful which is something I haven't felt in a very long time.  I asked about the numbers and she lets me know the asking price.  I put in an over of just five thousand below.  I mean you got to not cave right out the gate but I do want this house.

     It's been a week since I spoke with Brick.  He called me today to invite me over for dinner.  I agreed because I am trying my best to fix my fuck ups.  I love Penny but I have finally come to terms with the fact she is Brick's woman.  I put on a pair of nice jeans and a Tshirt.  I even shaved my face up some.  I pull out my favorite watch for good luck.  I head down the stairs and see Hotshot sitting in the corner.  He looks hung over and not himself.  I think about talking to him but I really need to go to dinner.  I don't want them thinking I don't care.  I make a mental note to maybe check on him when I get back.  I jump on my bike to head over to their place.  I pull up and see that Brick has done some more work to the outside of the place it is beautiful. I can't wait to hear back about my offer.  The real estate agent let me know that the sellers where out of town on vacation so I should hear back this week.  I am ready because I am already making plans.  I knock on the door and feel nervous about facing them after acting like a complete ass for so long.  Penny is the one who opens the door holding little man.  I step in and say hey to the both of them.  I follow her inside and see just how much they have turned this place into a home.  They have done a really great job on this place.  She tells me to have a seat that Brick will be out with me in a minute.  She says she needs to check on dinner.  I offer to hold my little nephew that I have neglected.  I have him in my lap making funny faces at me while he drools all over me.  I hear Brick laugh as he says "Yea he spits a lot now that he is teething.  I suggest you not let him have your finger though."  He holds up one of his fingers which has a band-aid on it.  I guess little man took a bite out of daddy.  We sit and talk for a little bit while Penny finishes dinner.  We sit down to eat and I start with my apologies.  I get Penny's attention "Penny, look I know I told you that I would be good with your decision.  In all honesty I really thought I would but when it went down it hurt a lot more than I thought it would.  I acted like a complete ass to you both.  I am happy for you guys though I just got really jealous too.  I want what y'all have.  I want a family, a house, a dog and a woman to call my very own.  I shouldn't have done that to you but I did.  I have no excuses.  I just really got jealous and reacted bad to the whole situation.  I just hope you guys can forgive me and hopefully move forward."  I look over to see Penny is crying.  She gets up and then walks over to me to pull me up for a hug.  I am a grown ass biker but all I wanted to do at that time was cry too.  I just crave my own little family so bad right now.  We are brought out of our little reunion by my phone ringing.  I laugh and pull it out to check to see it's my realtor.  I excuse myself to step outside for a minute.  I walk back in a few minutes later and Brick looks up to ask me what put that smile on my face.  I sit down to tell them about the little house I put an offer on that I just found out I got it.  I can't help the huge smile on my face because I really wanted the house. I think I will be happy there.  I plan on going to the pound soon to look for a dog.  I can not wait to be sitting on my own back porch watching my dog play while I just relax.  I am ready for the change.  We had a good time eating and laughing.  I actually enjoyed myself.  I loved watching the little man too.  Penny ended up asking me about Juniper.  I explained we were just friends.  I guess Cherise may have told her that there was more between us.  I went back to the clubhouse but not before riding by future home.  I feel like a kid at Christmas.  I need to buy furniture and fire pit.  I need sit down and make myself a list soon.  I also need to buy kitchen stuff.  I am so ready for this.  I should have done this to begin with instead of drinking.  Shit that reminds me I have to go to an AA meeting tomorrow.  I am going to get my life straight.  I am getting older and I have no more excuses.  

     I get back to the clubhouse and I see Hotshot sitting off to the side.  He doesn't look happy.  He is usually one of the guys who is always smiling.  I debate walking over to him to see if he needs to talk.  I mean I am not sure if I want to hear if Juniper and him are having issues.  I am turning over a new leaf so I walk over to him.  I take a seat beside him and wait.  He finally looks up at me.  I asked "Hotshot wants going on man?  You seem down.  I am not the best person to give advice but if you need a ear to listen I am here."  He looks up at me and I see he is really going through something.  He hesitates but finally tells me "Tank I messed up bad.  I can't really go into it but I don't know what to do.  I started dating Juniper and well I have enjoyed the hell out of it.  She makes me laugh and she is so easy going you know?  I love just hanging out with her watching TV man.  I just got to make a really hard decision either way I will hurt someone.  I just don't know what to do."  He stands up and walks off before I can even give a response.  What in the hell is going on with him I wonder?  I know they been dating and getting along really good.  I have heard the other guys talking about it.  I even heard a few of them saying that Hotshot is going to claim her as his old lady.  I guess he will talk when he is ready but I do hope he let's Juniper know so she is not left hanging.  I make my way up to my room.  I take a quick shower and of course I have to think about the time I showered with Juniper.  Damn that woman.  I put on some TV and find myself watching the serial killer series.  It seems at every turn something makes me think of her.  I have to focus on my new house because right now I am busy trying to fix myself.  I end the show and turn off the TV.  I drift off to sleep looking at the side of the bed that Juniper had slept on.  

     The next morning I wake up after dreaming about living in my new home with Juniper.  I walked into the kitchen and as she turned around her belly was like a basketball where she carried our baby girl.  The dog ran in to lick me as I came in from work.  Juniper walked over to kiss me and I felt the baby kick me.  We both laughed out loud.  The dreamed ended with me waking up feeling sad that it can't come true.  Hotshot and Juniper are making a go of it.  I have more self improvement to do before I can even think about that.  That dream though made me happy, made me feel like I won the lottery.  I get up and get my day started.  I have the AA meeting today and need to do some errands for the club too.  I walk into the kitchen to get a cup of coffee.  I see Hotshot with blood shot eyes. He is looking rough.  I may need to try and get Prez to talk to him.  I don't know what he is going through but whatever it is he is not looking good.  I head out to start my day.