30 Days | hunhan { SLOW UPDATE}

Anger and Jealousy

Its day twenty,

D.O.'s POV:

It has been a week after Luhan hyung left. Everyone was forced to forget about it, yet no one chose to. Every single one of us missed him so much, expecially Sehun. The maknae stayed in his room for all this time, until he decided to finally go out. He looked like a zombie; his eyes were bloodshot; eyesbags were prominent; his lips were chapped and his hair was oily. It was so shocking to see him like that.

"Kyungsoo hyung, can you pass me the beef." I passed the beef to Sehun, watching him taking it from me. I noticed a bruise on his arm which concerned me. Also, It's my turn to stay with the maknae since the rest attended a radio interview for the afternoon.

"How are you feeling Sehun?" I asked taking a chopstick-full of rice to my mouth without looking at him.

I entered Sehun's room without knocking and mess was everywhere. There were holes on the wall near where Sehun sat. His bed was not made, and his bedside lamp is gone in its place. I continued to walk and saw Sehun sprawled on the floor. I felt so uneasy seeing him like that, so I rushed to his side and noticed this chest moving which gave me a sign that he is still alive. Even though his eyes were closed his eyeballs moved under his eyelids, and his lips parted before he sighed.

"I'm okay...I guess. My mind is everywhere right now though." He glanced at me.

I took Sehun's hand before sitting down, crossing my legs. I caressed the top of his hand with my free one as I told him a few words. "He won't be happy if he sees you like this." He opened his eyes, but only stared to at the ceiling. "Well, he's not going to see me anyway."

I couldn't reply to him, all I could do was stare at him and nod. I felt like an idiot. "Don't keep your worries all to yourself, Sehun. You can tell me everything if you want. I am here to listen." I gave him a weary smile, he did the same and continued eating, but all of a sudden he stopped. "Hyung..." He placed down his chopsticks. "I don't want to be like this anymore. I don't want to be an idol."

"Stop saying things, Sehun." I told him, ignoring his gaze.

"Why not?" Replied Sehun.

"Because I said so."

"But why? Tell me hyung!"

"Sehun, let's stop this."

"But why?"

I couldn't tell him.

"Is this because of him?" I say finally facing him.

"Yes." He replied in a hushed tone.

I scoffed, not minding his angry expression he gave me.

"You were never loved by someone in your life that's why you're like this, pretending that you know everything about love!" He shouted walking out the door.

I sat there as my eyes began to water because of the words he said to me. I never felt so angry in my life to the words that he spoke, even though they were true. I don't know about love. I've never been love by anyone. My love are always unrequited.

Many have gathered inside the largest practice room in SM. Super Junior, F(x), Girls Generation, TVXQ, Boa, SHINee and EXO themselves sat on the floor except for the birthday boy Luhan hyung. We prepared a party for him to commemorate his birthday as well as being a part of EXO and the SM family. Sehun, especially, began to feel butterflies inside his stomach as Eunhyuk hyung announced that Donghae hyung just entered the SM building with Luhan.

"Hey, Sehun, are you okay?" Xiumin hyung asked the maknae. Sehun replied with a nod. Xiumin hyung draped his arm over Sehun's shoulder whispering something to his ear which I heard. "Don't worry, he'll love this idea, especially that it came from you." He winked at the end. He knew about fans shipping HunHan, but he doesn't know that it was actually true.

"EVERYBODY HIDE!" Eunhyuk hyung shouted when Donghae hyung missed called him which indicated that they're really close to the practice room. Everybody rushed to hide. All of the SuJu members hid behind the door, while F(x) and some members of SNSD hid behind the tables which was covered with cloth, except for Amber who disguised herself as a lamp along with Chanyeol and Baekhyun. I sat at a corner with his legs in front of his chest while covering himself with a white cloth, Kai joined me.

Do that hyung walked in front to open the door before letting Luhan hyung to walk in first to see the dark room. He screamed after hearing more than twenty people jumping out from their hiding spot to surprise him.

"Happy Birthday!!" The girls shouted, hugging him one by one. Behind them each and everyone of them approached the food later on allowing Sehun to have a chance to have a talk with Luhan hyung . Luhan hyung's face brightened even more after seeing the maknae, greeting him with a heartwarming hug. That's when I felt jealous.

I want someone to love me like how Luhan and Sehun love each other.

"Why are they acting like this? It's not like they're in a relationship or something..." Baekhyun hyung questioned, "or are they?"

I swallowed the lump in my throat and kept the same expression; I know the truth, only me.

"It's possible." I spat out, they all looked at me.

I'm sorry Sehun, It was all my fault.

I was so jealous to the point that I don't want you two together.

"Hyung...It's possible." Jongin stepped forward, holding a notebook. "I saw this under Luhan hyung's bed, I-I..." Suho hyung took it from his hands, reading a few pages from the notebook.

I was the one who placed Luhan hyung's notebook under his bed wide open to the page that will reveal all the secrets.