30 Days | hunhan { SLOW UPDATE}

Remember

Its day two,

I woke up with the sun on my eyes; I could barely open them. I glanced behind me where I stood last night. Still hoping that you would say something on the other side of the wall.

I got out of bed taking a few clothes and a towel with me, before going to the bathroom to take a shower. That was when heard you singing.

Heart Attack - Mandarin version.

Your voice sounded beautiful.

I silently walked towards the kitchen, only to find you wearing that silly frilly apron that Chen hyung bought as a joke. You were wearing it even though you hated that apron. It looked good on you though.

I watched you take glances at the pork belly that was sizzling away on the pan. While you removed the plug of the rice cooker from the power point. You turned around - I swiftly hid myself behind the sliding door so you wouldn't see me.

My heart thumped faster as I saw you still wearing that bed head. To be honest you looked quite sexy. I might not admit this in front of you, but you do look sexy.

I closed my eyes for a second taking in the smell of your cooking before heading towards the bathroom. When I finished taking a shower, I saw you at the living room eating by yourself, while you watched TV. You saw me and gave me a smile, and that was when I noticed your puffy eyes.

Were you crying last night? Because I did.

"I prepared food. We only have pork belly, kimchi and rice." You looked up at me and told me. "I'm going to buy groceries later on. Do you wanna come?" I stood there looking at you.

YOU. ARE. SO. BEAUTIFUL.

"Erm...Sehun?"

"I'll come." I nodded, blinking my eyes a few times before sitting beside you.

It was awkward at the start, but when you told me what happened last night unknown feelings began to fill me up from the inside.

"Sehun, listen." You placed down your bowl and your chopsticks on the small table before turning your body towards me. "The whole thing about me leavi-" I cut you off by hugging you. I really don't want to talk about it because it will hurt me even more. "Last night...I really wanted you by my side, but I guess you were too tired."

I didn't know that you felt that way last night. I was too afraid, of you kicking me out.

"I'm happy that I'm with you now." You smiled .

"I'm happy too."

'Please don't leave me ever.' was the only words I wanted to say to you. I wanted to stay like this forever until we grow old.

_ _ _

When we were walking to the grocery store, fans began to crowd us, I was afraid that I might lose you, resulting us and the fans getting hurt. I held on to you tightly as we walked through them carefully, leading you towards the entrance.

"Hyung, are you okay? Are you hurt somewhere? " I asked, looking at you as I placed my hands on your shoulders. You shook your head, I smiled in return.

It was fun buying food with you, and I'm very happy that I actually spent time with you without people trying to separate us. I wish could do this with you again. Even though I don't show my affections towards you that much.

Please remember that I always love you, and holding on to your hands in that short amount of time might not mean a lot to you, but to me it does...a lot.

When we got home, we set the bags on the dining table and sat down on the couch side by side, like we did on that winter night.

Do you remember?

You wrapped my arms with yours, quietly sitting beside me, as we watched 'Spellbound' on the TV. You tightened your grip when a jump-scare was shown. It was funny at first, but when you frowned at me I stopped - but, seriously though...it was funny. Every time when we watch a movie, you would always fall asleep on my shoulder snoring away like a little baby. I couldn't help by to caress that baby face of yours and smile.

"Luhan." I whispered.

That was the only time I dared to call you by your first name without adding 'hyung'.

I'm sorry. I just couldn't help it.

I carefully removed my arm from your grip so I could go to your room to grab your favourite blanket. I covered you with it, leaning in to kiss your forehead. But, I didn't do it.

I proceeded on placing the groceries to its rightful place before leaving the dorm.