I am Sabrina

Crap

At home I felt alone at school I felt like a piece of meat and at my best friend's house I felt like if I step foot in there I was going to get raped. "Sabrina what's wrong?" I didn't say anything I just sat there crying into my hands. Mika eventually figured out that I wouldn't say anything so she drove me home then had Levi come pick her up. I was supposed to get my surgery papers today but instead I was groped by boys all day. My mom took the day off of work but my dad didn't so he was already working at the hospital. I had gone up to my room and cried on my bed. My door opened and my bed dipped a little "Eren what happened" this made me cry harder I don't want to tell anyone. "Was it a boy?" I cried "it's not going to be easy Eren this sort of thing is going to happen more than once. I know your sensitive but you've got to say no. I understand if you don't want to listen to me but I've been thinking and I'm sorry how I reacted but you've got to think about our feelings too. Our little handsome boy is gone and we didn't even know it. But I still am your mother and I still love you to death. Just know you can always come to Me." she left and I eventually fell asleep.

I woke up around four in the morning with makeup on my face and my dress still on. My mother must have come back and taken off my shoes and put a blanket on me. I walked down the hall to shower. I didn't bother blow drying my hair because of the noise but when I made my way back to my room there was a paper on the floor. I picked it up and it said "NO SCHOOL WEDNESDAY" I was confused but ignored it. I walked in my room and I just felt sort of better that I can now be myself. I took out my north face backpack and moved my school things to this back pack since I don't have to sneak around anymore. I had gone back to sleep because I still had some time before school. I ended up getting two hours of sleep before I had to go to school. I wore my hair down and I wore a gray skirt with a white button up shirt with a black cardigan and a blue tie that was tucked in.

My gray north face backpack was sitting by mydoor. I grabbed it and left down stairs. I made myself some toast and was on myway. I parked my car in the school parking lot and walked to the bathroom. Inthe bathroom I was stopped by my friend Annie Leonhardt. She had her blond hairtied up like the usual she had on a blue skirt with a white shirt tucked intothe skirt. She had a cute bracelet on that fit her small wrist perfectly. Heroutfit was topped off with tan heals. "Hey Stranger where have you been Itexted you over the weekend what's up?" I fixed my makeup a little and answered"Oh nothing I've just been distracted this weekend why what's up with you?" "Iwanted to know if you wanted to get your belly button pierced with meafterschool" My mood totally changed "Hell yeah!" She washed her hands "Alrightit's a date see ya at lunch" she waved and I smiled. The bell rang soon and Iwalked out of the bathroom just to be pinned to the wall "Hey Eren" crap crapcrap crap "don't call me that. That's not my name" "oh but it is" his hand washolding onto my right wrist hard "what the hell are you doing here Rodrick" hepressed himself against me I turned my face and tried to get away but he wasway stronger than I am. "I go here now" fuck I felt the tears build up behindmy eyes "g-get off of me" he kissed my neck "not a chance darling" a tearslipped out "R-Rodrick p-please" he bit down on my neck "O-ow you're hurting me" he grabbed my face with his other hand,his grip getting tighter on my wrist. He forced a kiss on my lips, laughed then let go of me. I ran to my first period even though I was late I was glad to be away from him

"Sabrina you're late" "I-I know" my voice cracked the teacher walked towards me "Are you okay?" I nodded "Are you sure." I nodded again as I got my note book and pencil out of my bag. "Want to copy the bell work" "thanks Erwin" I copied the work and gave it back, and just my luck he was sitting on my right side. He grabbed my arm and pushed up my sleeve "What the hell is this" did his grip on my hand bruise my wrist already I pulled my hand away from his grip then whipped my face "It's nothing" I lied. "Sabrina I think everyone knows your ears turn red when you lie" "what, my ears aren't even showing" he pushed hair behind my ear and his face said that my ears are red "listen just don't worry about it I'm fine, really" he looked at me "okay but if this happens again you know you can tell me" I ignored him we only had three classes today and I was thankful for that but when the bell rang for second period I grew terrified

"Erwin walk me to class" he looked at me "please I just need you to do this" he agreed and walked me to class. In the hallway we walked through the halls I was paranoid "are you looking for someone?" Erwin was just worried for me "No" I looked back and there he was. He winked at me and I wanted to cry again. Once we made it to my class I was relieved "Thanks so much Erwin" "yeah no problem but are you sure you don't need help with anything" "I'm sure now go before your late" "alright" he sighed and was off. During lunch I was surrounded by friends so everything was okay I guess. I didn't see Rodrick for the rest of the day which was good news but I don't know if I can do this all year. At the end of the day I met up with Annie at the tattoo and piercing shop. She gave me a copy of the papers before we went in and I forged my mom's signature and we were ready to go. Annie invited her brother Reiner to come so he could record it. We did ours at the same time as we lay down on the tables we held hands. The man had gloves on and rubbed my stomach with an alcohol wipe then told me to hold still.

He stuck the needle through and before I knew it my belly was pierced with a diamond as was Annie's. We made Reiner take pictures of our new body jewelry after he stopped the video. "I can't believe we did this" "I know right it looks so good on you!" "Aw you too, Send me those pictures so I can post them on Instagram" she sent them to me right where we were standing "Thanks I got to get home see you tomorrow" "bye" I got in my car and drove home. God damn this piercing hurts. When I got home I lay down on my bed and looked at the pictures and video. I posted the picture of Annie and I showing off our new piercings. I put my phone on the charger and walked to the mirror to clean my belly button. My door opened "Eren did you- you got your belly button pierced?" I rolled my eyes "you know you should decide if you care or not before I do something out of hand." She sighed "that's the reason I came in here. I wanted to tell you I care about your happiness so if you want to be a girl and wear makeup then I guess I can't stop you." I didn't know what to say so I didn't say anything "well I just wanted to tell you that I'm sorry okay?"
The next day I wore jeans and a black crop top that said kiss me. I didn't check my phone but when I did there were so many comments and likes on my post and I also got some texts too. "I heard there is going to be five French models transferring to the school next week" I was really interested I texted Annie back "Really, five?"  She texted back, "yup, are you glad that we take AP French I heard that they will be in that class." "Really who are you hearing this from?" "Just get your ass to school" so I did I finished getting ready but before I left I made sure to put on about three bracelets on my right arm to cover up the bruise.

At school everyone was all excited. I guess the word got out. Throughout the day there was no sign of Rodrick which was good, and everyone still seemed to be drooling over me but still something was off. When I got home something still didn't feel right. I went to bed with a strange feeling.