I am Sabrina

It's hard to let you go

(Jean's POV)

I didn't know what to do.was that the reason why she didn't want to get too close, she already had a boyfriend? I mean yeah it's a shock but she looked and acted just like she didn't like him at all. I tried to look for her but everyone was getting kicked out of the party. Fuck what do I do, I need to think. Weeks went by and Sabrina hasn't said a word to anyone. We all tried to talk to her but all we got were blank stares and dead silence. I heard she broke her phone a while ago. I've been seeing her cuts on her arms she looks pale and like a zombie now. She doesn't even look like she's mentally here most of the time.

A few weeks had gone by and I needed to say something to her before she feels like she's completely alone. I don't know how I feel about this but I defiantly don't want this to end ill find a way to work around it. Who says we can't be just friends though? I went to her house I knocked on the door, and then I rang the doorbell. Maybe no one was home. So I went home too I'll try again later. My phone rang its Armin "dude I'm so sorry are you feeling ok?" I-is he crying? "Um yes Armin, are you crying?" "You don't know?" "Know what?" Armin broke down crying. I've never heard him like this before. "S-Sabrina tried to kill herself they rushed her to the hospital to get her stomach flushed. She took pills, and a lot of them.." I felt like I was just stabbed in my heart. I knew this feeling was just what I needed to decide what to do next. I now knew I loved Sabrina I needed her to live so I can tell her. I made my way to the hospital and by the time I got there her mom told me she was in a coma. I didn't know how to feel there was no words on how I feel numb maybe? Hurt, sorrow? I could list of different words but none would ever pin point this feeling.

"Jean I need you to calm down" I didn't know what to do so I turned around to leave "Wait! Here take this" she handed me a piece of paper. I took it then left without a word. Once home I sat down at the foot of my bed with the letter setting beside me. I stayed that way for an hour. I thought about that it said but I couldn't, no I wouldn't accept the fact she could die, I grabbed the letter then walked down stairs and threw it in my fire place when my door opened I didn't look to see who it was. "Hey how ya feeling, and what are you doing?" Sasha? "n-nothing" I took a deep breath and began to walk to my room Sasha followed me. I sat down on my bed and put my face in my hands. How could so much go so wrong at once? What happened to Sabrina to put her in a coma? I had seen her almost thirty minutes before. Sasha put her hand on my shoulder "Jean?" I looked at her Tears in my eyes. "Sasha." A single tear slipped out t-then she kissed me. As much as I wanted to I couldn't stop.