I am Sabrina

Wednesday

I woke up on Wednesday a little late but I could still make it to school if I didn't straighten my hair. So I pulled it up in a ponytail and got ready. I wore a white T-shirt and blue jogger shorts. As I walked out of my room my mom practically knocked me over "Hey I told you no school today" I remembered that note that was in front of my door a while back "why I have to go" "not unless you want boobs." I felt completely and utterly scatterbrained at the moment "what?" she swung her purse over her shoulder "I get off of work at two today so I can take you to get your surgery." "but don't they have to size me and shit" I sucked in my lips after I cussed "well they do that before they start its really up to you. Stay home and I'll take care of the rest as in treatment, school and things like that. You decide be ready at two thirty or not it's up to you." What the actual fuck just happened. Like hell I was going to go to school I just didn't know if I was excited or extremely nervous. I watched my mother walk out the front door in awe. When did she plan this and more importantly did dad know about this. I put my bag down and had gone back into my room. I changed into sweats and a spaghetti strap. I have boobs already because of the estrogen in my body but they were small and I often used push up bras but I was still cautious of showing my boobs because I'm insecure about the size. What also seemed weird was my mom's change of attitude. My wardrobe had grown so much I hadn't even realized how many times I've bought women's clothes and shoes. What was I going to do until two in the afternoon? My phone vibrated it was a text from Mikasa "where are you" I texted her back "I'm getting that surgery remember I'm not going to be at school for three weeks" she didn't text back for some reason.

Ever since what happened at her house we didn't really talk much. I feel closer to Annie now for some reason though. My phone buzzed again and I thought it was Mikasa but it was Annie "Hey Sari, where ya at?" I decided to tell her "Getting surgery later on, won't be back for three weeks." She texted back quickly "REaLly?!" it always makes me laugh when she text like that "thanks for the laugh" "I knew you would, it will be fine, and don't worry ill come and visit you." I want it to be a surprise "no I want it to be a surprise okay?" "well if that's what you want then I'll be here for you through your phone" "thanks Annie" "if you need me just give me a text or call" I almost forgot that Annie knew about me too. It's just that when I told her she didn't care at all so I guess I forgot. I sighed and decided to sleep more. I woke up at ten AM and had no idea what to do with my life.

I decided to clean every inch of my room and buy then it was twelve. Which leaves me two hours, I ran a bath and oh god how long has it been I added a bath bomb and a small amount of bubbles and was good to go. I got in and washed my hair as slow as possible. I swear I almost fell asleep it was so relaxing I could just die. I rinsed my hair then my body. I got out and it was one thirty. Thirty minutes left! I decided to watch some T.V until my mom got home. When she did I didn't know how to feel. "Alright ready" "I guess?" she smiled and we got in the car. I was so nervous. When we got to the hospital I didn't think I could do it. At the front desk my mom told them my name and appointment time. The women said "Alright the doctor will be with you in about ten to fifteen minutes" my stomach turned we sat down and waited "you'll be fine Eren, you still want to do this right?" I sighed yes this is what I wanted "yes, defiantly" she grabbed my hand and stood up "good because they just called your name" she smiled at me and I thought to myself my mom is the actual devil I am the spawn of Satan. "THAT WANT EVEN THREE SECONDS" my mom laughed I was freaking out "Calm down" We walked into the Dr. Office and I sat in the chair. He came in moments later "Hello Eren, what size are we aiming for this evening" I felt myself blush then I looked at my mom "tell him what you would like then he'll see what he can do." I looked back at him and let out a breath I didn't even know I was holding, "can I be at a C cup?" the doctor put hand sanitizer on and grabbed a marker then rolled his chair beside me "alright Eren take off your shirt." I took off my shirt and he measured my chest then marked around my mosquito bite boobs "Alright Eren looks like you'll be good to have a C cup. Now I need you to change into this paper gown, keep your underwear on and take out any piercings you have on your body."

Crap I was going to have to take my belly piercing out and it's going to close. The doctor left the room for a while I changed and slowly took out my piercing. The doctor came back and led us to a room. "now since this procedure will leave your chest very sensitive and tender we are going to ask you to stay the night. Is that alright? Good." When we got to my room they had me get into a hospital bed and they put an I.V in me. as the needle got closer and closer the more nervous I got. I looked the other way. The way mom happened to be sitting. She grabbed my hand and smiled. The poke didn't even hurt me I was just scared so I began to cry. My mother kissed my hand "it's just an I.V you'll be alright." I nodded. The nurse pat my arm and said "you've done great well be back with the anesthetics later. She left the room and I turned to my mom "mom what if I die, I don't want to die yet" she laughed "you won't die Eren ok. Calm down everything will be ok" the nurse came back and asked do you want a before and after picture. My mom nodded and handed the nurse her phone. My mom came closer to my still holding my hand and smiled I was still crying so I probably look ugly. She gave the phone back and said "alright you ready for this?" I nodded saying 'no'. She laughed and the anesthesiologist doctor injected the anesthetics into my arm and imminently I began to feel sleepy. I fought it like my life depended on it. I can hear myself mumbling and crying and squeezing my mom's hand "mom I don't want to die, I'm going to wake up and it's going to hurt. Don't leave me!" they rolled my bed to the room the procedure would be held in and they had to pry may hands off of my mom because I wouldn't let go "I love you mom" "I love you too sweetie" and then my eyes shut. Just the thought of wakening up a different person made me so anxious to see what the new me was going to look like. When I woke up I didn't know what time it was or who was around me or what I looked like.