Stage 3: THE BARGAINING

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by d1vineliw

by d1vineliw

MAYBE IF

my chamber echoed with regrets and maybe-ifs
about things I should have done to avert the end.
maybe if I allowed you to touch me the way you intended,
you wouldn't replace me with someone you just met.
it took you several months to make it public,
but we both know the truth beneath the curtains you worked to mask.
that your skin reached hers within a month of departure, and that she has always been around.
maybe if I didn't love myself enough,
i'd ask you on my knee to choose me that night.
maybe if we were still in the same class,
your feelings would not expire.
maybe if I took all the blame and apologized for being hurt,
i'd remain the one you see at the aisle.
maybe if I hadn't built my wall so high,
maybe if I was expressive enough,
maybe if I hadn't sent you the letter with a thousand words about my grief,
maybe if I stay silent with the fractures and gushing blood,
maybe it wouldn't be easy for you to kill me in that way.
maybe the ember you mentioned didn't go out.
maybe I'm still the one your flesh craves.