Rekindled Devotion

Twelve

Jaiyana

Two Months Later

Tuesday Evening

I'm staring sadly at a picture that Cairo posted recently. After everything that happened in Atlanta and me revealing my pregnancy and miscarriage to him, he blocked me on everything. He blocked my phone number and my account on Instagram. My crazy ass literally started a new Instagram with no pictures or anything with my work phone number, just to be able to see him. As soon as I tap on his profile, I see a new picture of Cairo....with another woman. She is gorgeous too. They are both sitting and he has his arms wrapped around her as they smile into the camera. The picture has the caption "New Beginnings". Damn. That just made my heart drop to the pit of my stomach. I am devastated. I really am. But I know Cairo deserves to be happy. If I hadn't fucked it up three years ago, and then again more recently, I am so sure we would be back together by now. But...I don't know how I am going to move on from this. I can't be with anyone other than Cairo and I truly believe that in my heart. My eyes travel over the picture a few times before I close the app and lock my phone. What if he has really moved on from me? I feel so selfish even thinking this way. I have hurt Cairo so much and I can't just expect him to come back to me just because I want him to. I sigh as I start up my car and head to my destination.

Within 30 minutes, I pull up to Lina's house, but I feel my heartbeat quicken when I see Cairo's Denali there. Fuck is he back in Houston? I park and I get out of the car and walk towards the door. As I am walking up the walkway, I see the door open and Cairo step outside and then close the door behind him. My heart flutters at the sight of him. Damn this is why I need to text Lina before just popping up.

"Hey Cairo," I said softly. Once his eyes connect with mine, his face drops.

"What's up?," Cairo said nonchalantly.

"....I didn't know you were in town," I said.

"You weren't supposed to know Jaiyana," Cairo said while shrugging his shoulders. Damn he's calling me Jaiyana? He rarely ever calls me that, only when he is upset.

"Well....how are you?," I asked.

"I'm not about to do this with you," Cairo said while shaking his head.

"Cairo....I'm very sorry. For everything," I said as I feel tears swell in my eyes.

"I know that. You have said it a million times. And you're sorry alright," Cairo scoffed.

"....Why are you talking to me like this?," I said as a few tears ran down my cheeks.

"Like what? I'm done caring about your feelings Jaiyana. I'm done being nice to you."

".....How can I fix this Cairo? Please tell me. I'll do anything," I pleaded.

"Nah it's nothing you can do other than move on. Go find your happiness."

"But it's you. My happiness is you Cairo."

"Oh now it's me? It's me now because it's convenient for you right? Well my happiness did not matter to you for three fucking years, so now I don't give a fuck about what you are talking about," Cairo said rudely.

"Cairo," I cried. Multiple tears stream down my cheeks as I stare up at him. He goes to walk around me, but I move to step in front of him. He looks down at me with an annoyed look.

"Cairo I know I should have told you about the baby and I am sorry I didn't ok.....I had that miscarriage and I cried the entire time just thinking about you and how you never knew," I said.