Rekindled Devotion (Completed)

Seventeen

Jaiyana

Six Weeks Later

Friday Evening

"....I don't think Cairo wants to be with me again Lina," I blurted out. Lina raises her left eyebrow at me before she busts out laughing.

"Lina I'm serious!," I huffed while crossing my arms.

"Girl you are tripping why are you even saying that?," Lina asked.

"Like we talk every day, we have seen each other on the weekends but...I've been hinting at you know....and he doesn't budge! Like why?"

"Jaiyana.....I know you're lying right now. You think he doesn't want to be with you because you two haven't fucked yet?!

"Well what is he waiting for?," I whined. Lina laughs a bit as she shakes her head.

"Jai maybe he just doesn't want to rush. You two have been apart for years and there is a lot of healing that needs to be done between the both of you," Lina said.

"Yeah but we had sex that very first day I got back," I defended.

"That's because you were both a little drunk. That's different." I sigh as I relax back into my couch cushions.

"....I just want him to make love to me Lina. I am craving that feeling that he only gives me," I admitted.

"I hear you. Have you told him that?"

"I haven't bluntly asked him to fuck me but the hints and signs are there. I literally have come to bed in lingerie and we will make out for a few minutes before he just ends the kiss and either turns away or we just talk until we fall asleep....oh...wait....do you think he is fucking someone else?!," I said. Lina gives me a blank stare as she blinks twice.

"Do not even say or think that dumb shit. Cairo is only interested in you," Lina said.

"...But what about that woman he was seeing in Atlanta? He told me they ended contact but what if he lied?"

"Jai...stop. For real. Do not do that. You said you want to trust Cairo then you need to do just that." I sigh as I shake my head.

"Lina....it's just different with us now. I just feel it," I said sadly.

"Jai stop being so hard on you and Cairo. A person goes through a lot of changes in three plus years. You both have grown and been through your own struggles. It's not going to be as easy as just jumping back into the relationship."

"...It's all my fault. I hid so much from him. What if he is punishing me for it?"

"Cairo would not do that to you and you know it." I sigh as I run a few of my fingers through my hair. I am feeling so discouraged with the way things are going between me and Cairo. I thought it would be as simple as us having constant contact and then just falling back into our relationship. It has not been that simple though. I miss being in a relationship with Cairo so to just be on the sidelines with him has been really difficult for me. I want more and he knows that, but he is holding back from me and that hurts.

I am disrupted from my thoughts as I feel my phone vibrate in my lap. I look down and smile faintly as I see a text from Cairo.

Just landed baby. I'm heading right to your place. Can't wait to see you. See you soon

Cairo and Camden had been in Atlanta for the past couple of weeks actually. I saw him last weekend but now he is coming to see me and Camden of course is coming to see Lina.