Burning Love ~ Billy Hargrove ( +18)

Chapter 21

  Billy's POV

"Stop...Stop..." she opened his eyes. Her gaze moved to my mouth, which was about to collide with her. "This... This can't..."

"Ma... Maddie? Billy? What are you doing?!" Max's scared voice startled me. "Gross! Don't mess with me!" She made a face of disgust.

"Get that look off your face, you little brat!" I said quickly pulled away from Maddie. "I don't know what the hell is going through your mind, but forget it. This is just sick," I grunted as I walked past her. I entered my room and slammed the door shut with a loud bang.

On top of that, I punched the wall with my fist. Damn it! It burned, it disgusted me to be jealous of Harrington and that Maddie had hooked up with him. And I shouldn't give a damn. But the worst part wasn't that, the worst part was every time I was close to her. Every time one of her hands brushed against mine. Every time she looked at me full of fury. Every damn time I had her lips and her perfume so close to me...

It drove me crazy. Completely crazy. Every time something like that happened, something inside me would ignite, making me lose control over myself. When she was too close to me, my mind would only think about brushing every inch of her skin, intoxicating myself with the sweet smell of her perfume, kissing every curve of her body. I wanted her to be mine.

And, to top it all off, that damn brat Maxine almost caught us. I hoped she didn't see anything. If she did, my dad would beat me senseless. If he found out it wasn't just some random guy sleeping with Maddie, but me, his supposedly "nice and good brother," who he wants me to be, he'd kill me.

Either you control those impulses and forget about her, or you're going to end up badly. Very badly.

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The next day

I had slept like crap last night. Maddie wouldn't stop running through my thoughts all damn night. That kiss I saw with Steve bothered me more than I wanted to admit. And the fact that, even though I still hated her, I wanted her to be mine. Only mine, and I knew that couldn't happen.

But why the hell would I want her to be mine?

I'd never been able to stand her, she even disgusted me. I had to get those damn thoughts out of my head, no matter what. I had to find a distraction.

And yet, you want her more than anyone else.
You know a simple distraction won't be enough.

Exhausted from tossing and turning in bed more than a spinning top, I glanced at the clock on my nightstand. It was almost time to get up. Even though, like every damn day, I was dreading going to school, I decided to get up and take a shower to try and clear my mind. I had to pass this damn year to find a job, and once I had savings, get the hell out of this shitty house.

I went to the bathroom, undressed, and stepped into the shower as soon as the water turned hot.
I closed my eyes and let the water cascade over my body before lathering up. For a moment, I thought I had finally managed to erase Maddie from my mind, but nothing could be further from the truth. Every curve of her naked body appeared in my head as if she were standing right in front of me.

Like flashes, memories of her scent ran through my mind. How I kissed her desperately, and how she devoured me with even more hunger.
How she dominated me and how she let herself be dominated by me, allowing me to do whatever I wanted to her. Her nails digging into my skin, her moans a symphony to my ears.

Damn it. Shit! I slapped the shower handle, turning it off, and tied the towel around my waist. I didn't even dry myself—if I kept thinking about her for another second, I was going to lose it. I opened the bathroom door, and just as I stepped out to head to my room, Maddie emerged from hers, bumping into my chest.