By Your Side (A Shakarian fanfic)(On hold until further notice)

Chapter 1

Garrus' POV
I couldn't believe it. Shepard was gone...........for real this time. The only one I've ever loved was dead, and she wasn't coming back this time. I never knew how much I really needed her, until I knew I wasn't getting her back. Shepard. Jane Shepard. MY Shepard....was gone. People say that turians don't have any emotions and show no feelings, yet I'd never cried this the much in my life. The one human that I've loved more than any turian was gone forever. I felt worse than I've ever felt, even when Shepard died the first time. I've seen so many comrades come and go and I've only felt a small amount of emotional pain when they die. With Shepard, it feels like I've lost a part of me. I guess I've bottled everything up inside and now, its all escaping from me. I loved Shepard so much. Hell, I still love her. I don't know what I will do now that she's gone. I probably don't seem like myself right now, since I haven't left her room. I look around her cabin and thought of all the times we spent in here, embraced in each others arms, shamelessly rolling around on the bed, naked. I haven't signed up to do anything in 2 weeks. I don't care for doing nothing but as soon as I try to do something, even as simple as calibrations on something I have to stop and clear my head, because she is always on my mind. I sound like a human teenage boy right now which is just a disgrace, but I just am going through a lot of emotions right now and I just can't hold them in any more. I just need to hear her voice and feel the squishiness of her body, specifically her torso. Its been 3 weeks since she died and I still feel like she died yesterday. I feel like shit, every time someone mentions her name. Even if they say anything related to her, I feel a twang of guilt, knowing that I couldn't do anything to save her. I couldn't prevent her from dying. I wish I was in her place. Everyone would be just fine without me, but Shepard was everything to everyone. If Shepard were here, she would tell me to stop being so emo and be a man. I feel like a disgrace to turian kind right now, because I'm crying over a human. No....she wasn't just some human. She was Commander Jane Shepard of the SSV Normandy SR-2. My girlfriend. She is and will always be a hero. I love her and always will love her. I guess I have to do what everyone has been saying....and move on. I looked at her clock. 12:00. I got up off of her bed and walked out of her room. I decided to go and do some calibrations while everyone else was asleep. It was all I could do while no missions where going on. I walked over to my station and started working on some calibrations. A few minutes later, I heard a familiar laugh, of course I thought I was going insane so I continued to work.
"I figured you'd never stop the calibrating, even while I'm dead for the second time"
I turned around quickly and looked around the room. No one was in there with me. I could have sworn I heard Shepard's voice. No no, that's impossible. She's dead. She wasn't coming back, I knew that. We saw her die.
"Who's there?" I call out into the empty room.
"Wow Garrus, don't recognize the voice of your own girlfriend, I didn't think I was gone that long."
"Whoever that is, this isn't a fucking joke. Impersonating a Command officer is against the law." I growled raising my voice.
"Why would I impersonate myself?"
"You aren't Shepard, Shepard's dead" I lowered my voice, remembering that the others were still asleep.
"Quite the contrary" I heard the voice say from the door behind me. My mandibles clicked and I took a deep breath. That smell. I turned around and saw her standing at the door. It....It couldn't be.
"Did you miss me Vakarian?" Shepard said coming closer.
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Shepard's POV

"Find any survivors this time, Ben??"

"Unfortunately not, Hayden"

I groaned and sat up in the rubble of a building. I had survived death's wrath once more. I looked around at the remains of London. We did it. We had finally beaten the reapers. I stood up a brushed off the dust and looked around a little more. I gasped at the horrific scene, I had scene many times. All of my comrades that I had come to know, and had become great friends with..... all dead. I started to have a panic attack when I didn't see Garrus and James anywhere. I stretched and walked in a random direction. After about a mile of walking, I saw a body up ahead. I hope and pray that it wasn't anyone majorly important. I sprinted up to the body and gasped when I saw who it belonged to.......EDI. How am I going to tell Joker? If he already knows, I have to hurry and comfort him. I looked up ahead to see her. The Normandy was there with 4 other ships. I had to see who survived. I ran towards the ship and climbed aboard. I didn't see anyone working on things and it was almost midnight so, I might as well go get something to eat. I was on my way to my cabin with my cupcake when I heard someone mumbling in my cabin. I hid behind a wall and listened to what they said.

" No....she wasn't just some human. She was Commander Jane Shepard of the SSV Normandy SR-2. My girlfriend. She is and will always be a hero. I love her and always will love her." the person said. Garrus?? I smiled at what he said. I love you too Garrus. I heard him sniffle. Was he crying?? He sniffles again. He was. Garrus Vakarian, a TURIAN, was crying over me, a HUMAN. I heard him get up and I hid in the doorway when he opened the door. I wanted to see what he was gonna do.

"I might as well work on some calibrations while everyone is asleep"

Damn it Garrus, I'm gone for who knows how long and you're still doing calibrations?? I giggled, I guess thats Garrus for you.

"I figured you'd never stop the calibrating, even while I'm dead the second time." I said from the doorway.

He turned around quickly and looked around the room.

"Who's there?" He called out to the room.

"Wow Garrus, don't recognize the voice of your own girlfriend, I didn't think I was gone that long." I replied
"Whoever that is, this isn't a fucking joke. Impersonating a Command officer is against the law." He growled raising his voice. God, he was cute when he was mad.
"Why would I impersonate myself?" I asked
"You aren't Shepard, Shepard's dead" he said lowering his voice.
"Quite the contrary" I said stepping into line of sight. He turned around and looked dead at me with a shocked look. I could tell he'd been crying
"Did you miss me Vakarian?" I asked walking closer to him.
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Garrus' POV

"S-Shepard?" I asked.
"The one and only." She said walking up to me.
"You died"
"No dip Vakarian"
"How are you here, we saw your body, you were dead?"
She laughed."You can't get rid of me that easily"
All I wanted to do at the moment was pin her against the wall and kiss her, so I did. She wrapped her arms around my neck and kissed back. I grabbed her waist and pulled her against me. I felt her, she was here. I pulled away.

"How?" I asked.

"How what?" She asked trying to catch her breath.

"How are you still alive, we saw the explosion and we saw your body, you were dead." I asked pushing her hair behind her ear.

"Like I said, you can't get rid of me that easily, Vakarian" She said caressing the side of my face. I put my hand over hers.

"I thought you were seriously gone Jane. I couldn't handle the fact that the one I love was gone forever" I said looking at her with a concerned look. She kissed me and returned the look.

"Garrus, I won't leave you forever, I love you way too much" She said running her hand along the side of my mandibles causing me to purr. She smiled.

" I love you too Jane."

"Now, before we wake anyone up, shall we head to my room?" She asked. I ran my hand up her back.

"Actually, I had something else in mind" I said clearing my throat trying not to make it awkward.

She smirked and rolled her eyes.

"Still the same old Garrus huh?" She said pulling me into her cabin.