All They Told Me Was Just Give Up

Chapter 15

Elise’s POV

I was going to try to get away from our people today. I would still watch Of Mice & Men preform but there was no way I was watching girls flirt with my fiancé again. It was so awkward and painful to watch. Not because they were too young I didn’t have a problem with that. It’s that they were all gorgeous, over developed girls. And that’s how I realize that Austin can do so much better than me. He could be marrying a super model, so why was he sticking with me when all I did was cause him frustration and drama. I was a mess, why was he still here?

“Hey, David.” I said as I caught up with Breathe Carolina. We were planning on hanging out today. He knew I needed to get away from the usual loop of people and emotions.

“Hey! So you coming to watch us preform today?” He asked and I nodded my head excitedly.

“I’ve never seen you guys live! Better make it super amazing for me.” I said with a small laugh.

“What?!” Kyle said looking jokingly offended. “You’ve never been to one of our concerts? I’m slightly offended by this.” He said acting like a teen age girl.

“Whatever. I don’t have all the time and money in the world you know.” I said sticking my tongue out at him. David laughed at us.

“So, are you okay?” David asked quietly. He was talking about yesterday. I sighed and brushed a hand through my long dark hair, shaking it out a little. I had kept it wavy today, I didn’t feel like straightening it each day for Warped, it was going to get fucked up in the heat anyway so what was the point?

“Yeah.” I said with some forced happiness. I knew he wasn’t going to buy it but it was the best I could do right now. My nightmares were getting worse, I hadn’t eaten in 2 days, and I felt like I was going insane.

“Elise, we are going to have to talk about it eventually… Or you will with someone… If you ever need to talk or just want to, me and Kyle are always here, okay? We are your new best friends!” David said with a laugh and I smiled at him.

“But what about Pierce the Veil?” I asked sarcastically and added a laugh onto the end. Pierce the Veil and I were pretty close too but David was like my brother now. I couldn’t explain it but me and David immediately clicked when we met. It was so nice having him by my side. Knowing I had another best friend to go to.

“Screw them, you’re mine.” He laughed and put his arm around me like a friend would do. I laughed at him, a genuine laugh. Whenever I was around David I didn’t have to fake it, and that was nice. “Hey, wanna get something to eat before we play?” He asked and looked at me. I looked down at my feet instead of meeting his gaze.

“Nah, I’m not really hungry…” I said and he sighed. His arm was still around my shoulder as we walked.

“You still aren’t eating?” He asked and I shook my head. I could feel tears building in my eyes now, which I hated. I didn’t want to cry, there was no reason to. I was at Warped Tour, touring with so many awesome bands and people, I got to stand side stage for any band I wanted and it just didn’t seem fair for me to be crying when I had so much to be thankful for. I blinked the tears away hoping they would stay away. “You aren’t going anorexic on us are you?” He asked with concern laced in his voice. It wasn’t meant to sound like a sick joke, but it came out that way.

“No… I’m just not hungry anymore…” I said looking in the opposite direction of the guys.

“You have to eat sometime. I can see you’re losing weight and that’s not good.” David said and Kyle, realizing he didn’t belong in this conversation ran to the food tent to catch up with All-Time Low.

“Ha, why not? I need to lose a few pounds anyway.” I said with a sarcastic laugh trying to blink the tears away again, but it wasn’t working this time. I wiped at a few that were racing each other down my cheek.

“Elise…”

“I’m disgusting, this is good for me. Maybe then I can compare with all those other girls hitting on Austin all the time.” I said looking up at the sky hoping gravity would keep the tears in but at this point I was practically talking the tears out of hiding. David stopped me. He grabbed me by the shoulders and practically shook me.

“Elise, you are beautiful. And Austin loves you. Why else do you think he proposed? He doesn’t just do all of these things for someone he’s unsure of. He loves you; I can see it in his eyes when he looks at you. But you don’t see it because you are too inside your own head to notice half of the things going on around you. You don’t notice the way Austin gets jealous when you talk to other band guys but he doesn’t say anything because you have a right to talk to people, he gets jealous when he sees some of them flirt with you, you don’t even notice them flirting with you do you? He does, he gets insecure just like you. He tries so hard for you, to keep you happy, to keep you here. He wants to make sure you’re safe but it’s really hard for him when you’re pushing everyone away and doing all these things to hurt yourself.” David dropped his arms from my shoulders and racked a hand through his messy hair.

“I don’t know… I just can’t see it… I just feel like he could do so much better than me and he’s making the wrong choice with me. I’m sorry I’m just being a bother… Maybe I shouldn’t hang out with you today.” I said. I really didn’t want to cause David stress, I was already doing that with everyone else.

“No, you are going to go watch us preform and you are going to have the best time of your life up on that stage with me. Come on!” He said grabbing my hand and starting to walk quickly to the stage he had to perform on soon. I stumbled trying to keep up with him. I hoped watching them preform would cheer me up…