All They Told Me Was Just Give Up

Chapter 1

Erin’s POV

I was 4 months pregnant. 4 fucking months. I felt fat most of the time but Alan still seemed to see me the same as I always was. I hated being pregnant though. It woke you up at night and you had terrible morning sickness for the first 3 months of it. And having the thing be a fucking Jackie Chan kicking your stomach all the time didn’t help. But it was also kind of cool. When I got ultra sounds and got to see her, yes her, moving around in there.

Alan and I had picked out the name Ella. It was the only name we could agree on I wanted to name her Brielle but Alan didn’t like that so we shortened it to Ella. Ella Naomi Ashby. I couldn’t help but smile when I thought about her name. I just wish it was time for her to get here! The doctors said I was due on October 31st. Halloween. Of course. But they also said I might not carry it full term because I was so small.

“Good morning.” Alan whispered in my ear kissing my neck. It made me smile and shiver involuntarily as he rested his head in the crook of my neck.

“Good morning.” I said with a yawn, stretching ever so slightly as to not make Alan move from his position behind me  with his arm around me. I could feel his warmth surrounding me and it made me smile.

“We have to pack today.” He said and I could feel his warm breath against my neck giving me goose bumps. I couldn’t tell if I was excited for Warped Tour or nervous. I had been to Warped so many times growing up but this time would be so much different. I would be hanging out with the bands that I would normally watch preform on stage. And I wouldn’t be in the crowds anymore I would be standing side stage. I would be on the same stage as my favorite bands. I would be hanging out on my favorite bands tour busses. It was an odd mixture of emotions I was having.

Elise, of course, was coming along too and so were Tino and Phil’s girlfriends, Sarah and Dani. But they wouldn’t be bunking with us they would be on their own tour busses for most of the tour because Sarah was one of All-Time Low’s guitar techs and Dani was Asking Alexandria’s merch girl.

“Ugh, do we have to go on Warped Tour?” I asked with a joking laugh. I wanted to go, I did, but not while I was pregnant. It would make me feel so disgusting and fat and just gross. I hated feeling this way about myself. And I would have to be around band members that are super attractive, I can’t let them think that Alan can’t get an attractive girlfriend! Alan laughed and snuggled in closer to me.

“You’re gunna love it. I promise.” He said grabbing my hand and intertwining our fingers. I sighed, I hoped he was right.