All They Told Me Was Just Give Up

Chapter 13

Alan’s POV

I stumbled into the bus and almost fell up the stairs. Damn was I really this drunk? I walked my way back to the back lounge, as well as I could. I opened the curtain and there she was, Loni, the guitar tech. She came with us everywhere. We couldn’t do shows without her.

“Uh, hey.” She said turning off the TV she was watching moments before. I stumbled to the couch and sat down next to her and a small smile crept over her face. “What’s up?” She asked.

“Erin’s flirting with other guys and shit… I guess she’s the only one allowed to have fun…” I was so sick of her flirting, or as she called it, fan girling, with all these other band guys.

“Aw, I’m sorry…” She said with a puppy dog face and put her head on my shoulder. “Can I do anything to help?” She asked and took her hand and drew a circle on my knee with her fingertips. Then she went up farther with another circle.

“I don’t know…” I said too tired of all of Erin’s shit to think of anything. But Loni had her own agenda of how she was going to help. She sat on her knees on the couch next to me now and leaned in close to my ear.

“I think I know what will help.” She whispered and kissed my neck.

“No, Loni, I have Erin…” I said trying to swat her away but she gave me a pouty face.

“You said it yourself, why is she the only one allowed to have fun?” She asked and ran a hand up my thigh making me shiver, fuck it felt good. She smiled knowing she had me under her control. She straddled me and pressed her lips on mine.

We got well on our way to being almost completely naked when the worst possible thing that could happen, happened. Austin walks through the curtain into the back lounge. I glanced up from Loni and saw him standing there with a shocked look on his face. I forgot this bus wasn’t private. I pushed Loni off of me and she folded her arms across her bare chest and Austin averted his eyes to our almost completely naked bodies.

“What the fuck Alan?” He asked and my face turned bright red. It felt so hot in the room at that moment. Like the devil was trying to bring me into hell.

“Um, I, uh… I…”

“Where’s Erin? You are so lucky I was the one who came back here and found you like this instead of Erin. You have a fucking child to think about. That isn’t too far off, you can’t be doing this to her!” He yelled still not looking in our direction. Loni grabbed her bra and quickly hooked it back on and threw on her tank top. She stood up and pulled on her jean shorts and started heading for the curtain.

“I think I’ll just go and leave you two to talk…” She said and started to leave.

“Fuck no. You, you better stay away from Alan or I will kick you off of this tour and keep you from ever working with us again. What were you thinking? He is going to have a kid!” Austin’s face was redder than mine. He was furious and I could see that. I stood up and pulled on my jeans but disregarded the shirt. She looked at the ground and nodded her head.

“Okay…” She said and then exited. I felt like I was going to cry I couldn’t tell if it was the alcohol or that I had just almost cheated on Erin. I put my head in my hands and starred at the ground in disbelief of myself.

“What were you thinking?” Austin asked me crossing his arms across his chest.

“I… I don’t know… I was drunk…” I said not knowing what other explanation there was.

“That is not an excuse. You better think about what you did. You better not fuck up that relationship with Erin… She gave up everything for you…” He laughed sarcastically. “And you do this to her… Wow…” He said and started leaving. By this time there were tears dripping down my burning hot face.

“Where are you going?” I asked through a sniffle and wiping at the tears still coming out of my eyes.

“I’m going onto the roof to think…” He said quietly and then left. I can’t believe what I had just done…