All They Told Me Was Just Give Up

Chapter 5

Alan’s POV

I walked up behind the couch that Erin was sat on in the living room and put my arms around her neck, kissing her temple. But she threw my arms off of her. I frowned and walked around to sit next to her on the couch.

“Look, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have freaked out, it was really stupid of me. I don’t know why I get this way before touring, but I do.” Although maybe I did because my last girlfriend that I took on tour, Maddie, she didn’t exactly make touring easy or fun like it should’ve been. She was the last girlfriend I took on tour and I got my heart absolutely shattered. “And I’m not going to blame it on the tour, I take full responsibility but I don’t want you to be mad at me anymore. I’m really sorry.” I said and gave her a puppy dog face. She sighed.

“Alan, you really need to grow up. You know you can’t act like this towards me. I have hormones fucking up my moods right now and you pissing me off doesn’t help. You want to be here for this baby? Then fucking act like it. Don’t push me away or that’s where I’ll go, away.” My eyes widened like a kids would if they got yelled at by their parents.

“No, Erin please, I’ll make it up too you I promise. I don’t ever want you to leave. I need you here. I can’t let the one good thing in my life leave.” I was almost pleading with her at this point.

“Alan I’m just saying if you don’t change the way you are acting. I’m not leaving any time soon. Where would I go? I sold my townhouse for you, for this relationship. You better not prove me to be stupid for doing that…” I shook my head.

“No, it was the right decision and I will spend every day trying to prove that to you from now on.” I really was. I never wanted to lose Erin or Ella.

“Good.” She said with a smile and wrapped her arms around my neck pulling me in closer to her. Then she made a face. “I think Ella’s going to be in MMA fighting or something, Jesus.” I smiled at her and placed my hands on her belly and felt small kicks hit my hands. I smiled at that feeling. That was my baby girl in there. I couldn’t wait to be a dad.