I BELIEVE

unbearable??

*Kehlani's POV*
The sexual frustration thickening in the air could be cut by a knife, he watched as I swallowed down saliva, and my god if gazes could make you come undone then it was Xavier McKenzie's. This man should have come with a warning saying, dangerously attractive.
"Breathe Kehlani..... I'm not going to f*ck you right now, I'm not yet done planning how bad I want to ruin you" he said with a smirk.
Was it legal to orgasm by the words of a man, well I don't think so.
"Would you like to continue to hear the story or do you want to cum first" those forest green hues stared at me with so much lust I almost gave in. Instead I held unto the sliver of sanity I still had and said.....
"Please continue"
My voice was so hoarse I barely noticed it as mine.
"If you say so sweetheart." He said with a smirk once again.
"Stop calling me that" I said with gritted teeth.
"What?" He asked with such an innocent face I almost believed him.
"Sweetheart"
"But love you are my sweetheart".
The honesty in which he said those words made my heart melt, I couldn't ever remember a man complimenting me so well that I was almost reduced to a puddle before him.
"Please continue the story" I said with gritted teeth.
"Sure sweetheart" I'm very sure he just said it, just to piss me off but if only he knew what his words did to me, what his smile did to me, what his face did to me, that body of his, he should be jailed for looking so f*cking damn gorgeous but indeed as they always say the most beautiful men are fictional characters and here I had the opportunity to be standing right in front of one and I couldn't help but praise the very one who created him.
"If you're done ogling me I'd like to continue the story" he said with a smirk.
"You wish" I replied with a teasing smile.
"Some things never change" Xavier said with a smile as well as he shook his head, I could sense sadness within those words, it was the only thing that stopped me from retorting back.
Suddenly Xavier grew serious, was it even possible for someone's mood to change so fast?
"Look Kehlani, the past is in the past right now we have to deal with this situation, you don't remember a thing but at least you know most of the story which is extremely dangerous, there was supposed to be a side effect when you found out about it without remembering, Grace and I just thought it was going to be death, but I don't know since nothing has happened yet the book might be bluffing........."
Before he could continue I cut in....
"Hold on....what book?"
"When I got reincarnated, I awoke in a hospital with me clutching unto a book, the book had no design cover on it but when you looked closely, there was a writing at the bottom that kept blinking you have 150 days left, then all the memories of the past started rushing in, I opened the book just to find a message on the first page, it said I had 150 days to make you remember me and fall in love with me again, it also stated there'd be heavy consequences if you were to know of it without remembering, grace was with me at the hospital at that time and she seemed to remember everything as well, within the past 50 days we planned on what to do with Kai, because he couldn't find out we were alive since he was the one who murdered us in the past."
I think it was the shock in my eyes that shut Xavier up, but he also realized the question I wanted to ask.
"As much as I hate to admit it Kai really loved you, to an extent that I felt he was obsessed with you and when he found out what we'd been doing behind his back, he was livid, he threw me out of the house and begged you to come back to him, but then you told him you loved me, I should have known he was planning something behind our backs when we went silent after you confessed, one whole freaking month, Kai made no move, I'd decided to give him space after all he was my brother, he'd forgive me, we'd work it out but no, I lost my brother the very minute he found out I loved his girlfriend, that night as I drove as to the place where I'd planned my proposal, I received a frantic call from grace who had managed to find out what Kai was planning, but unfortunately he found out before Grace could contact us and stabbed his own sister to death....".
A lump formed in my throat as I listened to Xavier's words, I could see angry tears brewing and his eyes and all I wanted to do was to hold him and apologize for everything, it was my fault after all, why couldn't I just keep one brother to myself and be happy, I just had to ruin everything, heavy emotions locked in my throat as I struggled to breath normally, Xavier unaware of the turmoil I was going through as he dwelled in his own.
"As grace struggled to remain alive she used her last breath to contact her brother and imagine how I felt when my own sister called to tell me this might be the last time we actually fight....."
At this point tears had already started streaming down my face.
"She did her best and told me kai's plan, but I guess it was too late, the minute she finished a truck knocked into ours and pushed us of the road, the accident was fatal, there's no way we could have survived...."
Xavier took in a deep breath as he tried to control all his emotions. At this time my tears were incontrollable as I stared at Xavier, within a second, he moved so fast I didn't even notice since the tears had clouded my vision, I could see his own tears about to fall as he gripped my chin and screamed into my face.
"Do you know what you f*cking told me, before you died!.....DO YOU!" Xavier screamed as his grip on my chin tightened, I slowly shook my head, understanding where his pain were coming from......his words were barely a whisper as he uttered them.
"You were 2 months pregnant Kehlani".
I wail broke from my lips as fresh pain slashed through my veins, this time the images were a bit clearer and the sounds much more clear.......a bloody me, barely try to live and Xavier inching as closer to me as he could as I uttered the words....."I'm so sorry Xavier, I knew you would have been a good father"
Even at the moment I saw shock flash through this eyes.
"I'm two months pregnant" a dying me, said to Xavier as I closed my eyes and took my last breath. Present day, the dam Xavier was trying to hold in had burst and his tears were falling on my face.
This time we grieved, not over our lost love but we grieved as a couple we had just lost their child. The pain, it was f*cking unbearable.