The naturals - one shots

Us two against the world

Before Judd takes the children to the plane.

Sterlings POV.

I didn't feel like talking. I didn't feel like anything. I was watching Judd pack while Tanner was somewhere out there planning our next move and for the first time I was glad he was my boss. I would have not been able to think straight. „Do you really need to leave with the kids?" Judds back was turned to me. The whole time he hasn't said much. And I didn't know what to say either. I still felt sick to the bone. I felt tired and weak. When he didn't answer straight away I spoke out loud what I was thinking the whole day. „I need the kids. I need a miracle. I can't think straight. I'm not good enough to solve this case alone" And I didn't want to let you down again... The last thing didn't cross my mouth. „I don't want one of them to get killed" But its ok for you to see me hurt? „I'm not scared about you or Briggs. You are a fighter you always been. You can take care of yourself even if you don't think you can." I know he meant it in a good way but his words didn't help. „Lets get the kids" I just followed him out of the room. Each breath I took was as intense as possible. I was scared that if didn't breath mindfully I would start to cry again. With my luck Michael was the first one to cross my way. It didn't take an emotion reader to understand why my eyes were puffy and red but I felt still embarrassed and ashamed to look into his. „Believe me I would also love to help you guys" His words sounded playful but I knew he meant it. „The plane should be ready when you guys are" Tanner came back into the room. I just starred at him, how could he possibly look so unbothered? But then again he was never really good with showing emotions openly but neither was I and still I was standing here nearly crying my balls out. He must have sensed my gaze because something in the way he was standing changed. „We are just waiting for the others" Judd announced and looked at his watch. I just sat on the sofa arm and didn't look in a specific direction. My view was blurry and I felt empty. When Sloane walked in with her luggage in her hand I needed swallow again. She really looked a lot like Scarlett. They even almost had the some facial features but Scarly had more freckles and her hair was more wavy. She was a bit better with people and emotions than Sloane. I missed her.  The others joined as well at some pointe. „Ronnie we should keep going" announced Tanner and I just nodded.
Stood up and was half way through the door when Judd  grabbed my arm gently. „Come here" He opened his arms and I didn't care the kids saw this because I needed it. I felt so overwhelmed with what was going on right now. I wrapped my arms around him and closed my eyes for a second. For other people that might be so strange but I was always closer to Judd than with my biological father. Judd was the one who would put a plaster on my wounds, my father was the one who caused them.
„If somebody can solve this case than it is you ok?" I nodded and looked up to him, he pushed me once again in his arms and kissed me on his forehead. I didn't know why it felt so much like a final goodbye.

Half an hour later I was sitting on the hotel floor with Tanner looking through the files once more. „I have Scarletts files as well on my laptop" The files I couldn't watch. We haven't talked much at all. When he said these words I looked up from the food I tried to eat but couldn't get down. „I can't look at them. You should have a look" This wasn't easy to admit and I really was immune to dead people. The smell didn't bother me anymore, I have seen everything but I cannot look at the pictures of my best friend. Tanner nodded and we went silent again. „Hey Ronnie" I looked up again. He could sense in what bad state I was in, I knew he was able to sense it. „I'm really sorry. For everything. I was a horrible person. You don't deserve and I actually missed you" I completely froze. How was I supposed to answer to something like this? Panic started to rise up and then my phone rang. When I saw it was Judds number, I immediately put him on speaker. „He is back" I could hear the fear in Judds voice. I jumped on my feet. „Who is back?" Asked Tanner before I could. He pressed his body close to mine and it gave me a warmth I longed all day. „There was the same letter on the plane. I will try to get on a normal flight. But he watched me. He watched us. He is not done with us. What am I supposed to do?" Breathing felt hard. Tanner sturdied me, before I could loose my balance. „We get you and the kids a safe house. I'm not sure if it is safe for you to go back" I sounded surprisingly convincing but we will see if I could actually pull this off.

Hello and welcome back ✨ I took a little holiday trip to Stockholm ❄️ (already life in Sweden but never been there) and it was really nice but now I can finally finish TN 3 and hopefully get inspired to write a bit more of ✨this✨