PHOENIX- Rising from the ashes

Chapter 12- Healing-I

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Haseena was sitting on her bed in half lying position with the support of the backrest. She had bowed her head and was fidgeting with her fingers.

Karishma was standing in front of her with her arms crossed on her chest. She was observing Haseena's body language. Haseena's shoulders that always stay straight with confidence were tilted. Karishma had never seen this restlessness and anxiousness in her madam sir that she was seeing at that moment.

"I am sorry." Haseena's feeble voice had disturbed the silence of the room and Karishma's thought process.

"Why?" Karishma asked in response, her voice was strong and stern.

"Because... I had given you pain. I had forced you to relive your fear of losing me. I know I failed to keep my promises but... please forgive me." Haseena's voice choked and a sob escaped her lips.

Karishma at once leapt forward and embraced Haseena in her arms. At the very next moment, Haseena's silent sobs turned into loud wailing.

Tears welled up in Karishma's eyes seeing her madam sir's broken state. She was repeatedly rubbing her back to provide her a little comfort.

Karishma's whole body was sweating as she saw herself at this side of the line for the very first time; where she had to proactively take steps to heal her madam sir. She felt her throat dried up as the difficulty, sensitivity and trauma of the task dawned upon her.

Karishma's POV:

In the previous times, it was Haseena's side. Only she had to handle everyone's pains and traumas. It was always her responsibility to manage and rectify all the damages no matter who had done it.

If we had hurt her emotions then she was to forgive us no matter if we had apologized or not; because saving the integrity of her team and taking care of their emotional and physical health was her responsibility.

Either it was mission Jeet when she got to know about Anubhav Singh's betrayal or her engagement when her love had run away, Haseena had handled her break downs herself. Neither we had done anything for her nor she had expected anything from us.

And the one time when she was stuck between life and death; when on one side she had to ensure her beloved team's security and on other side she had to secure her country,  She had to keep her team and her family's emotions and expectations at the back foot.
Saving the lives was of course more important than focusing on what will hurt me and what will not.

And it's not that only I were in pain. She was also bearing the pain. The pain of seeing her closed ones crying and mourning her own death and the inability to wipe their tears.
The pain of seeing her self and her love being mocked by someone she had trusted with everything.
The pain of seeing her love trying to kill her.
Haseena your pain was far worse than mine and yet you never complained.

From the moment your memory has returned you have only seek forgiveness from me... from us. You have gone extra miles to take away my pain when you were in pain too.
With your self-hatred, lost self esteem, tarnished trust, and broken heart, all you are bothered about is to apologize to me,  to make me happy, to take away my pains, and to keep me secure.

And here my fears and pains were everything for me. Never for once I had thought about your sufferings, traumas, and broken beliefs.
I don't know what you are made of Haseena, you are losing your ground and all you are worried about is me and my sufferings.

But not anymore, I promise Haseena I will bring you out of this darkness. Once again you will shine brightly with your evergreen confidence and genuine smile.