Did You Come To Stare Or Wash Away The Blood? (My Chemical Romance Fanfic)

Another Story That Made Up A Million Shattered Dreams

Title from Far From Home by Five Finger Death Punch

Thank you to nobodys_her0 on instagram (aka @toxic_tragedy you should check out her story 'Thank You For The Venom') for the chapter title which I think is from a Five Finger Death Punch song (I don't listen to them that much but I liked the lyrics she suggested)

Chapter 24- Another Story That Made Up A Million Shattered Dreams

I was standing in the middle of an empty road, I couldn't seen anyone around. The sky was dark but the thoughts running through my head was even darker. A bright white light flashed in front of me, the figure of a woman faded into my vision. Her long blond hair and bright blue eyes made my heartbeat quicken when I saw these things.

"Mum?" I questioned stepping forward, she smiled and looked at me longingly. "But I thought you were dead. Am I dead too?" I asked panicking.

"It's not your time yet honey, not even close. You still have so much to live for," she told me stepping forwards.

"How do I have anything to live for any more?!" I snapped at her. "I'm worthless and everyone knows it!"

"Sweetie, you're not worthless. Think about Lewis, Jaimie, Drew and Shane. Think about your dad," mum tried to convince me but I wouldn't believe it.

"Is he even my dad? We look similar and that's about it. I'm too pathetic to be related to Mikey Way mum. I'm a disappointment to both of you," tears started to tumble down my face.

"No, I'm proud of you. Think of all you have done already and you have so much more ahead of you. You're all I could have wished for and so much more, I'm just sorry I couldn't be there for you. Please just live for Lewis, you have changed him Elena. You have no idea how much you mean to him, you can't leave him just yet," she reached her hand up to my cheek but she couldn't touch it. "i love you so much Elena never forget that, the hardest part of this is leaving you but I must go now. Mikey will be the father you need but Gerard will take you in," and with that she left in flash of white and I was on my own in this deserted street once again. I had no idea whether any time had passed while I was there but it felt like I was just standing there for years. I occasionally heard sobbing but I couldn't be sure if i was really hearing it or I had gone completely mental. The time I was standing there - if it was any time at all - I began to think of what my mum said. She was talking about Lewis and that made me wonder how much he meant to me. Yes Lewis and I didn't always see eye to eye but he was there for me. Yes he ran but he came back, and he looked like he cared. I thought about the way his green eyes shone in the light and a smile played on his lips when he saw me. The surrounding scene began to fade...

I heard beeping, at first it was steady, a constant beat. Slowly other things started becoming apparent to me, the heavy breathing of someone to right- the were probably sleeping, music playing to my right and the low buzzing of lots of machines. I tried to move but I couldn't. The beeping began to increase in tempo as I became more and more agitated. The person next to me began to wake. They quickly grabbed a hold of my hand and called out for a nurse. He kept on calling until the shuffling of feet could be heard. I felt something rushing through my veins before darkness came once again.

I woke up for the second time and I opened my eyes as soon as I was able to. Everything was too clean and to sterile, I couldn't stand it. Well everything but the people around me, they were far from clean. At first I thought I was dreaming as it's kind of short to wake up to Alex Gaskarth singing Lost In Stereo, which just happened to be my favourite All Time Low song at the time, and Jack Barakat in his infamous boner shirt sitting there staring at me. Lewis was also there, his eyes were closed and his breathing was heavy. A pale hand was wrapped around my even paler one and following the arm I realized it was Lewis'. Noticing this brought a smile to my lips and hope to my still groggy mind. Jack was the only person who realized that I was awake his grin stretching further than I thought possible. Only Jack would smile like that to someone he didn't even know waking up. His smile was infectious and soon I was grinning too causing Jack to widen his smile. I'm sure he was just a really tall, really pervy five year old that you could never be angry at.

Alex finally noticed that I was awake and joined in our grinning session.

"I see our sleeping beauty has finally awakened," Alex said to me smile slowly becoming a small giggle. I rolled my eyes.

"And what does that make you? Prince Charming?" I muttered sarcastically with what little noise I was able to make from my throat. Jack handed me a glass of water and helped me to slowly sit up moving Lewis' hand away from mine; he didn't stir.

"I believe he is your Prince Charming," Jack replied gesturing to the sleeping Lewis.

"So now you're the fairy Godmothers then. You'd look cute with wings," I told them with a half smile. "Not that I'd trust Jack to fly," I muttered making Alex burst out laughing and Jack pout like a five year old.

"Oh I'm sorry little Jacky, I'm sure Alex will kiss it better," I off handedly joked not expecting Alex to actually kiss Jack... full on the lips. I was struggling to keep my fangirling on the inside.

"JALEX IS REAL!" I shouted not being able to contain myself. This caused a nurse to come running in fully prepared with an injection. My eyes widened at the sight of it. "Woah no way! No more shots for me thank you every much," I told her hurriedly raising my arm up. "Fuck," I quickly said as pain ran up my arm. "I forgot about them. My spindle was really a razor blade and my curse was my own demise," I muttered darkly confusing the hell out of the nurse only Alex really understanding what I meant.

I slumped against the headboard and glared at the nurse before she left I looked over to Alex before asking:

"What happened?" in barley a whisper.

"You were rushed to hospital as your body started to shut it's self down from the blood loss and protect yourself from the pain," Alex took a deep breath. "You've been in a coma for a week. It's been killing him," he nodded to Lewis. "He hasn't left this room, well except for you know, he really does care about you. They all do, they are doing everything they can for you," I looked over at Alex confused.

"Explain," I muttered scrunching my face up in confusion. He made an 'O' shaped face.

"You don't know yet. Hell we haven't even introduced ourselves properly yet," Alex got to his feet and began to pace, Jack just sat there only half paying attention to what was going on. "Hey, my name is Alex Gaskarth. It's nice to finally see you awake as this is the second time that I have come to see you. The idiot there is Jack Barakat and he has already decided that you are his best friend. I've been singing to you to try to wake you up," he stumbled over his words with a rush to let them escape into the open. My jaw dropped causing some bones in my mouth to make a loud cracking sound. It was actually fairly normal for me. Alex's eyes quickly shot over to me but I just shook off the gaze.

Silence filled the room, well as close as you can get to silence in a hospital room. Which really isn't that silent if you think about it... I'm going off topic again. You've probably noticed I do that quite a bit... SHUT UP ELENA AND JUST GET BACK TO THE DAMN STORY! THEY WANT TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED NEXT! I sound crazy don't I?

Anyiero, Lewis finally broke the awkward silence by mumbling something about Jack in his sleep. I didn't quite catch what he said exactly and I'm pretty sure I don't want to know as it resulted into Jack and Alex bursting into fits of contagious laughter. Once this recent outburst came to an anti climax I began building up the carriage needed to ask Alex and Jack the question that was pestering my, still slightly fuzzy, mind.

"Alex? Why exactly are you here?" he coughed awkwardly and looked over to Jack, who just raised his arms up as if saying 'You're on your own here dude'. Alex sighed before letting his gaze back over to me.

"For lots of reasons Elena," he perched at the foot of my bed with his left hand on my leg. I couldn't bring myself to look into his eyes as he carried on so instead I starred at the newly inked tattoo of a rose on his hands with the initials T.E.G. His brother Tom. "We wanted to meet the girl that has stirred up so much controversy, we wanted to meet a dedicated Hustler in need, we wanted to meet the girl who has been inspiring teenagers all over the world to keep fighting over the past week, we wanted to meet Mikey's little kid," I glared at him for calling me little, Alex didn't notice but Jack did. "We needed to show people like you that there is always someone who cares about you, someone needed to make sure Prince Charming got some sleep," he paused and looked at Lewis sleeping. His face contorted before going back into his sweet half smile. "Also because someone needed to make sure you guys got everything you needed while everyone else was in court," Alex half whispered the last part as if hoping I wouldn't hear. Oh I heard all right.

"COURT? WHAT DO YOU MEAN THEY ARE IN COURT? WHAT DID THEY DO WRONG?" I screamed trying to get out of the hospital bed. Jack held me back but that didn't work so he forced me to sit on his lap, and no, not in the pervy oh-my-tre-Jack-what-are-you-doing-get off-of-me-you-wanker way, more of a I'm-not-going-to-let-you-go-out-there-and-hurt-yourself-anymore-than-you-already-have way. I stopped struggling as Jack wrapped his warm arms around my waist carefully avoiding my arm as not to irritate the healing slashes. I didn't understand how Lewis was still sleeping through my screaming but I was glad that he was because I'm sure that he would throw a fit if he saw Jack holding me in this way, innocent as it really was. This calmed me down slightly but I was still worrying about what the others had done to be in court, well half of my mind was anyway. The other half was thinking about how much I would have preferred to have been sitting on Lewis' lap at that moment in time.

"No, they haven't done anything wrong. Gerard is trying to adopt you but the Ross' are fighting against it. They are trying to say that as your foster parents they have some kind of control over where you go if you ever leave them. The fact that they are trying to convince the court that you were kidnapped by My Chemical Romance and Fearless Vampire Killers isn't helping in your favour. They keep saying how you wouldn't leave them under your own influence and how you never would have been in your current situation if it wasn't for Shane and Drew. It's not going to well since Matt is apparently the person who knows you best and he, of course, is siding with his parents," Alex paused for breath.

"What about Jaimie?" I cut in "He knows me best, he is basically my brother. He's like what Jack is to you... just without all the Jalexy type things y'know," I was speaking quickly afraid that i wouldn't get all the words I wanted to get out in time.

"I understand but the Ross' are saying that he was part of the kidnapping so his views are not really being taken into consideration. Also there were reports of you running from the bus crying in two city's, one of them being Reading. As well as reports of you being badly beaten by the My Chem guys," I cursed at myself as well as Matt.

"People must have seen me running when I first found out about Mikey and when Matt cornered Frank and I in one of the alleyways he bust have noticed the bruising from the blond bimbos heels on my face. I need to get to that court Alex, I need to get there now," I started to struggle against Jack's grip but it held fast.

"Calm down Elena, we'll get you there as soon as you can be discharged from this hell but fo-" I interrupted Alex.

"I don't care about being discharged I'll sign myself out of here if I need to. I can't let Matt and his parents get away with this. I've always dreamt of finding my father and now his amazing older brother who has saved millions of lives wants to adopt me, I'm not going to let anyone stand in the way of that. Maybe then I can get my life sorted out and doing something good with it instead of being the worthless orphan who is only any good at blending into the background and causing everyone around me pain. I used to only have two people who cared about me in my life and they were Jaime and Matt, now one of them has finally succumbed to his abusive fathers ways and become exactly the same as the guy who made me run away in the first place. Now I have more people that care about me and I care about than I ever imagined. I have Jaimie, Ray, Frank, Drew, Shane, Mikey, Gerard and Lewis. These people me more to me than I do, as long as they are happy I don't care about myself. They fill that empty place in my heart that had been lonely for quite a while. They are my last chance, better reality. They saved me when I thought I had nothing left to live for anymore. I need to do this, please Alex let me do this,"

Jack still hadn't spoken which was really weird for him but he did loosen his iron grip slightly, in my opinion meaning that he was going to let me do this if I wanted to. Alex still looked unsure but I was almost positive that one look at Jack he would give in, even if Jalex wasn't as real as almost all the fans hoped it was Alex still had a soft spot for Jack, anyone who spent more than five minutes with the two of them could see that.

"You're not going to convince her otherwise you know, once she gets an idea in her head it's pretty hard to change her mind. Well, unless you're me," I hadn't noticed that Lewis had woken up at some point during our conversation but as soon as he spoke up i jumped out of Jack's lap and over to Lewis on the other side of the bed. He opened his arms and I quickly nestled myself into his chest feeling the familiar electricity flowing through my body.

"I missed you," I mumbled into his warm chest. Lewis began to stroke my hair and twist it around in his fingers.

"You are totally in there dude," I heard Jack call from the other side of the bed. I looked up at Lewis to see him pulling a face and shaking his head causing the blond hair to sway slightly.

"Jack! She's fourteen! And Elena means a hell of a lot more to me than that, I love her and I would do anything for her. That's why I'm not fighting against her moving to America with Gerard. I can't afford to relocate across the ocean yet but I am trying the best i can to move over there are soon as possible because I can't stand to be away from her. I just hope that Elena can wait for me to find her again," I turned around so that I could see Jack, Alex and Lewis, which really was an awkward position.

"I will wait forever for you," Lewis smiled and gently placed his lips against mine, fireworks were going off in my head as the kiss became more forceful and his perfectly shaped lips parted ever so slightly letting his tongue dart out. Unfortunately we were interrupted.

"Alex! Pass me your phone. I wanna film this," Jack called out turning back into his normal self. I reluctantly pulled away from Lewis and glared at Jack. He held up his and looked so cute and innocent that I couldn't stay mad at him.

"Well are you going to get ready to go to this court house or do we need to watch you make out all day?" Alex asked sarcastically.

"Fine, do I have any clothes here or do I have to go in these terrible hospital pyjamas?" Alex pointed to my backpack in the corner of the room before dragging out of the room.

"I can go too if you want," Lewis said awkwardly as the door closed, I shook my head and took out a shirt, skinny jeans and clean underwear. I turned my back to him as I pulled off the hospital shirt and changed my bra to the one I picked out of my bag being careful not to let the fabric touch my cuts. Slipping my shirt on I felt slightly more comfortable about Lewis being in the room with me. Thankfully the shirt I picked out, my one that said 'Reckless and Brave' was long enough to not make me feel awkward as I changed into my skinny jeans. When i had finished getting ready i was wearing simple black skinny jeans, with my purple low tops and me Reckless and Brave shirt. Thankfully whoever had packed my bag had remembered to put in my eye liner, enough cover up to hide my few remaining bruises, natural coloured eye shadow and the beanie I had 'borrowed' from Adam. Just as I was putting on the finishing touches to my make-up a doctor and nurse came running in.

"Okay, Elena. We do not advise you to leave here yet but Mr Gaskarth has agreed to take full responsibility if anything goes wrong if you leave this hospital. Are you sure you want to leave?" I nodded. "Okay let me see your arm before you go," I tentatively held it out. "Before you leave we are going to bandage it up so that hopefully the wounds don't reopen and you don't have to end up back here okay?" The nurse steered me to the bed before wrapping a bandage tightly around my arm. They both left without a word confusing the hell out of me.

Lewis swung my bag over his shoulder before taking my hand and walking us out into the corridor where Alex and Jack were waiting. We didn't say anything to each other just walked out of the hospital each looking relieved as we got our first breath of fresh air.

"How long was I under for?" I questioned them nervously.

"8 days," Jack replied. "And you've had a lot of love from Hustlers, Killjoys, Echeleon and the newly formed Knights. You have your own little fanbase Elena! People have been wishing you the best and they will be fangirling over the fact that you are finally awake!"

We called a taxi and made our way to Reading courthouse. My mind was filled was so many thoughts I didn't even understand what was going on within my own head and I was so confused about the turn that my life had taken. Who knew that the little orphan would become this person? Who knew what would happen because I decided to run away from my hell hole of a foster home? Well, I certainly didn't.