She's the little

Chapter 29

"you did what?" i ask staring at the back of James's head.

i could feel lizzie's hand on my arm, as i stared down at James, eyes wide and fury coursing through me.

"Dianna its not-"

"don't."

i felt like i was walking through a cloud as i made my way through the restaurant and out the door.

lizzie called my name as she followed me down the street.
"did you know? did Derik tell you?-"

"no! oh my god no he didn't tell me."

i continued walking down the street with lizzie at my side, and i could feel her eyes burring into my soul.

my vision was blurred with tears, leading me to accidentally walking straight into someone as i rounded a corner.

"oh- sorry! i'm so sorry." i sputtered as a looked down at the redhead who sat on the ground in-front of me.

"its fine." she said as she used the hand lizzie had held out for her.

"are you okay?" she asks,
her face frozen as she stared at me, my mascara halfway down my neck and snot bubbling at my nostrils.

my voice brakes as i try to speak and my knees hit the concrete hard, my legs giving out from underneath me.
"no she is not."

"we have to go- we gotta go!" i say, sobbing as i try to get my self up- grateful fro lizzie who helped me.
"-they- were like 40 feet away from the restaurant, they'll be out any second-" i say as i use the back of my hand to wipe my face, then grabbing the two girls arms and dragging them down the street with me.

"uh-yea oh-kay. lets go." the red head says, and her voice makes my slow- only for a moment, before forging on with my new found friend.

eventually we get far enough away to make me slow a-bit eventually stopping, leaning against the wall of an old gas station that sat right on the edge of the town centre.

"i'm jenny, by the way." my new found friend tells me, as her and lizzie set themselves either side of me, as i slumped down on the concrete floor.

"nice to meet you jenny." i say threw sniffles.

"i'm lizzie. this is Dianna." she tell her, and i can feel lizzie rest her head on my shoulder.

"we should be best friends." i say looking over at jenny, and i held out my hand to her.

"i will be your best friend but I'm not holding your hand, u watched you wipe snot off your face that hand." jenny tells me, and i let out a big laugh, and i don't think id laughed like that for years, i felt like a child.

in reality it wasn't that funny but i was too sad to really think about it.
lizzie laughed too, and i heard jenny giggle along with me as-well.

"wait so he tricked you into signing the papers?" jenny asked, taking another sip from the bottle of vodka we had gotten, thanks to lizzie's fake ID.

"papers? no i haven't signed.. anything." i say thinking back on any recent events.

"then how did he get custody? its a mutual agreement girl. like a marriage license or something like that, you need a witness and everything." jenny tells me.
"are you sure he wasn't paraphrasing? maybe you misheard him?" she questioned.

"how do you know so much about this?" lizzie questioned, pulling the bottle from my fingers, taking a long gulp for herself.

"i was convinced id be a caregiver. did the research, read the books, watched the videos, talked to teachers." she explained.

"was? so your not a caregiver?"
"nope, apparently i'm a little." jenny said staring straight ahead of her, like she had tunnel vision or something.

i could see the disgust behind her eyes. she didn't like herself.

id seen it before. thats why they tell you don't expect anything from your results, your only building the disappointment up.

some people burry themselves so far down they don't know why they are, they maybe they try to cover there own imaginary grave in a castle of hope for a different category.

"us too, apparently." lizzie says, stuffing a gummy worm into her mouth as she stared at the dark sky.

"wheres your caregiver then?" i ask, cocking my head to the side as i watched her, waiting for her answer.

"no clue, never met him. my parents kicked me out when they found out, burned the damn paper away too, means i cant go looking for him so i moved in with my sister and her pet a couple cities over. that was like 2 months ago, and he still hasn't found me." she tells us as she reaches into the bag of jelly's.

"do you want him to find you?" lizzie asks hugging her knees as she stared down the empty hallway.
i guessed she was starting to miss Derik.

"no... i don't think so- i like my life. i don't need dome stranger showing up and kicking my dust around."

i understood her.
i think i was her. maybe along time ago, back with teddy.
i was in denial. if they had done the test at that point in my life i think i would have been classified as a damn sub just with how deeply i had destroyed myself.