She's the little

chapter 32

"i'm going to a party." i tell David as we walk through the hall.

"what?" David said, giving me a sketchy look.
"i need to feel like me, dave. i feel like i lost my spark." i tell him.

"well you're out fits have been lacking lately." he jokes makings me roll my eyes.
"i'm serious."
"so am i! where have all the cute outfits gone, all i ever see you in is oversized pink shit." he tells me.

he was right, i literally based my outfit on how comfortable it would be to nap in.

"who have i become." i tell myself as i walk into study hall.
i'm apparently not allowed to sit with David anymore unless its group tutoring so i had to drag myself across the room to a table i thought looked cozy enough.

at first i did the work but eventually i got distracted and started colouring in things on the work sheet, then eventually just moved on to draw flowers on the back.
i was so lost in my own world i didn't even feel a presence behind me until i heard someone clearing there throat.

"what are you up to Anna." james said crouching beside my chair.

i had forgotten all about my drawing, immediately flipping it over back to the half completed worksheet.
"Anna..."

i feel james hand come up and stroke the side of my head.
"awh, i wanted to see the really pretty picture you were doing." he told me, and he sounded different, he was putting on a familiar voice.

"your doing that voice you do to try and get me to act little." i tell him as he stands up.

"i don't do it so you'll act little, i do it to see if you'll stay little.
things like colouring are little Anna, you just don't realise it." he tells me, and i frown.

"come on, home time." he tells me holding his hand out for me.

james took me back to his place and sat down on the couch pulling me into his lap.
"you know i don't like how comfortable you gotten pulling me around like i'm a toy." i tell him, crossing my arms over my chest as i settled into him.

"really..? you don't like being held and cuddled? he asked sitting forward leaning his head down into my neck, then beginning to "aggressively" kiss my cheek and the side of my head.

u let out a squeal and started to giggle, feeling his fingers start ticking my stomach.

"okay okay! you can stop!" i say squealing and squirming, thankful as his arms settled back into place.

i felt james set his chin on my shoulder lightly kissing my temple.
"i know you weren't a fan but did you feel like trying the pacifier again? only just for your nap." he asked and i could feel his thumb rubbing my hip, comforting me slightly.

i thought about it for a moment.
james isn't going to ask me to do something that wouldn't help me.

i looked down at my lap rubbing my knuckles together.
"okay... but only for a nap." i say making sure to clarify that id only try it to sleep.

i feel like i felt the joy radiating off him as he kissed my temple again, slightly harder this time, more exited.  
"thank you, Anna." he said quietly as he squeezed me.

"thanks for asking instead of doing." i say, throwing some light hearted passive aggression into my tone.

we watched tv for a-bit, and i didn't really remember when i started dozing off but i remember feeling confused when james walked into my room with me in his arms.
why aren't we going in his?

i felt him lean over laying me down in the bed before i heard him wander over to a set if drawers pulling something out.
i got more confused when he pulled up the railings on the sides of my bed.
is he not staying with me?

james leaned over me and pushed something up against my lips, reminding me about the pacifier agreement.

i let him slip it into my mouth, the cool rubber pressing on my tung and the backs of my teeth.
well i might as well commit to it now.

i lightly sucked on it, waiting for that comforting feeling everyone always talked about to kick in.

i felt the back of james fingers stroke along my face, pushing some hair out the way.

i felt myself smile into my pillow as i felt the bed dip and suddenly james arms were around me.
he's not leaving

i was happy enough to drift off with ease while being rapped up in james big arms.

"oh such a sweet baby girl." i heard james muse in my ear quietly as his fingers rubbed light circles on my stomach.