Sane? -seongjoong-

17. one more chance

SEONGHWAS POV:

This was the right decision. I had to fix this problem with me and Hongjoong right now. I can't just let him go like that. Especially when i don't even know what happened back there at the hospital.

I grip the steering wheel tightly, the tears on my face starting to dry up. I lock in, trying not to cry again and to focus on what's important. Me and Hongjoongs relationship.

After 20 minutes of driving, i arrive at Jonghos place. The lights were off but it didn't stop me from knocking on the door.

I knock once, nobody answered. I knock twice, and i hear noise inside but still no answer. So i yell out, calling out for Hongjoong. No answer. But i'm not giving up. Not on him.

I yell out for what felt like an eternity and then...i hear the door creak open.

It was Jongho. And he seemed pissed.

"Leave" he says as he tries closing the door on me.

"Hold on..can i talk to Hongjoong?...Alone?" I hold the door open not excepting no for an answer.

"I said leave before I get pissed" Jongho glares at me as he starts raising his voice.

"Woah..i mean no harm...i'm just trying to settle things between me and Hongjoong. And i'm desperate, please"

I beg Jongho to let Hongjoong talk to me, at least a word. Even seeing him at this point is enough.

Jongho sighs and turns around to look at something behind him. He nods and i hear footsteps approach the door. It was Hongjoong.

Jongho opens the door wider and there i see Hongjoong, the most important person in my life, the one i want to protect for the rest of my life.

"Come in.." Hongjoong signals Jongho to leave us alone and he silently disagrees but ends up going to his bedroom anyways.

I come in, letting the sight shock me a bit as the inside didn't seem as nice as the outside. But that wasn't my problem right now.

"You can sit here" Hongjoong points at the couch and I sit down. I felt nervous and started kinda regretting my decision but i couldn't back down. I had to fix this now.

"Hongjoong, I'm sorry, for everything" I look down while i feel tears start to form. My eyes already puffy which start to hurt even more now that i was crying again.

"I don't know what i did but whatever i did, i'm sorry and i hope you forgive me.." I look up to meet Hongjoong in the eyes, he looks sick so i start to worry even more.

"..." Silence was all that filled the room. No words or sounds came out of Hongjoongs mouth. Just on and off eye contact.

I sit there waiting for a response, fidgeting with my fingers, my hands dripping with sweat as i start to feel nervous.

"I know you came here to make things right but i don't want to waste our time worrying about things that don't matter anymore" Hongjoong said cold heartedly.

I quickly turn my head to look at him wanting to know what the hell he meant, i desperately wanted to know what i did wrong.

"What do you mean? I came here so i could apologize but i also need to have reason for me to do so. And things do matter Hongjoong.."

I sit there hesitating if i should say what i was thinking but at this point Hongjoong is loosening the grip and i don't want to let him go.

"..Because i don't want to lose you...like at all.."

I can't look at Hongjoong. I don't want to know what he has to say. But i also want to know everything he feels and thinks.

I hear him sigh then i feel movement beside me. Hongjoong has gotten up from the couch to go open the front door.