Sane? -seongjoong-

4. loved ones

Hongjoong sat on the couch quietly while Seonghwa was fixing his papers. "So you're Hongjoong correct?" Hongjoong nods and Seonghwa smiles, "So Hongjoong how old are you?" "18" says Hongjoong literally sweating balls. "Wow! You're 3 years younger than me!" Seonghwa says. Hongjoong smiled at him and says "Really? I thought you were my age for a second" Seonghwa smiled, Hongjoong was distracted by his beautiful smile. "So, what brought you here?" Hongjoong smile faded and sighed. "I don't know, my mom is being a bitc- I mean a bit overprotective but I know I'm fine." Seonghwa smiled at him and said "Well I'm sure she sent you here for a reason, correct?" Hongjoong looked down and told him he didn't actually know.

Seonghwa sighed and told Hongjoong it was going to be okay from now on. Hongjoong started to cry, he couldn't help it his tears just flowed down his cheeks.

Seonghwa wanted to hug him so bad but he couldn't. Not right now. Even though he was supposed to help his patients and calm them down it was different for Hongjoong. He literally fell in love with Hongjoong the moment he came in the room, how the hell is he supposed to hug him now? Then he remembered what his job was. So then he hugged him.

Hongjoong felt the warmth that went onto him. He saw Seonghwa hugging him. He melted in his arms and started crying even more. He just want to stay like this forever.

Seonghwa's POV:

I hugged him, and it felt great. He started crying even more and I felt so bad for him. I wondered what he went through that he had to end up here. Clearly he wasn't okay and needed help. I'm going to try to help him as much as possible.

Hongjoong stopped crying and all his slobber and boogers were on my jacket but I wasn't mad at him, not even one bit. I wanted to tell him he was beautiful and that's he's not alone, I really just wanted to...kiss him.

,,,Shit Seonghwa, stop I'm moving to fast,,, Seonghwa gave Hongjoong a head pat and said "Hey..you alright now? Hongjoong nodded but didn't let him go.

20 minutes later..

"Hey Hongjoong, can you tell me what's going on in your life?" I asked but Hongjoong kept zoning out and whenever I talked he snapped out of it. "Um..well its a long story and I don't know if you want to listen to me talk for so long.." he said "Well Hongjoong, I'm a therapist I'm supposed to listen to you no matter how long or short it is." I'm sure Hongjoong knew but he was just scared to talk to me and I understood him.

Finally after some convincing Hongjoong decided to tell me. Hongjoong told me everything. I was shocked and felt so sorry for the man in front of me. I wanted to cuddle him until all his problems went away.

Hongjoong's Pov/3 person view:

Seonghwa asked me what was going on in my life. I wanted to cry so badly. I don't want people finding out what happened or my su1c1d4l th0ughts. I was scared, really scared. Seonghwa's voice soothed me though. But I didn't want to trust him at all.

Hongjoong silently stares at Seonghwa's face and Seonghwa was waiting for a response from him. Hongjoong once again, looked down and sighed. "Okay fine, well it all started when I came out to my mom...that I'm gay." Hongjoong was already tearing up. "I told her that I asked my crush out and she got mad but she got even angrier when I said I liked a boy." Hongjoong stopped for a moment, then continued. "But everything went down hill when my mom...."

Flashback 2 years ago..

I was dating Yeosang at that time. I loved him and he loved me. We never fought nor did we ever disrespect each other. But one day...it was the day everything went downhill.

Yeosang started ignoring me all of a sudden. It felt like 1000 knives went aiming to my heart. I was seriously heart broken, this has never happened before. Yeosang would talk to me everyday there was no day he did not talk to me, he always had to or in quote "I would feel lonely and sad without you babe."

I knew Yeosang went through some shit also so I never felt alone. I wanted to help him heal and he wanted to heal me. I was basically his therapist and he was mine.

I thought telling him about my su1c1d4l th0ughts would make me a burden to him. But he always told me to tell him everything. So I did.

I told him about when I told my mom about liking boys and that how she said it was a sin. Yeosang told me that it was okay and that my mom was wrong about everything she told me. He always gave out the best advice and he really 'healed' me like he said he would.

But I didn't really know if I helped him or not. I hoped that I did. He always told me I did. But did I really?

After a few weeks it was when he started ignoring me. I told myself that it was my fault and its when I started s3lf h4rm1ng. I was depressed.

Later I found out that my mom sent him messages saying, "Go to hell you f@gg0t" "Nobody wants you here" "My son doesn't like you like he says he does" "Go kys f@g"

But I never knew he would actually do it..

He committed..

It's all my fault..

I want to die..

End of Flashback..

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So guys how do you like this chapter? I really tried hard on this one and I'm in loveeee. Also if you're reading this I'm currently making a yungi story called 'When the Alcohol Hits' I would appreciate it if you guys check it out!! chapter 2 will be coming soon.

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