My Gay Fear (boyxboy)

Finals

KYLERS P.O.V

Well, finals are coming up. I need a tutor but it can't be Miles. If he were to tutor me I wouldn't learn anything. I'd just focus on him and his voice. I wouldn't focus on the stuff he was trying to teach me. Every time he asks me if I need help with anything I say no.

I don't need him worrying about me. He needs to focus on his own work. I know he cares about me but, he seems to care about me to much. If I fail the finals I could easily get held back.

MILES P.O.V

I can see that Kyler needs help with school work. I try to help him but he won't let me. He asked me to study with him yesterday. Maybe it's because I said no. Is he mad at me?

I'll ask him today and make sure everything's alright.

KYLERS P.O.V

I heard my phone ringing but it was in the kitchen. " Damnit" I said as I pulled myself off of the couch. " Kyler you better watch your language" I heard my mom yell from upstairs.

I quickly ran out into the kitchen and grabbed my phone. I answered it and didn't bother to check who it was. "Hello?" It was silent for a second but then I heard a voice. " Hey kyler" who the fuck is this. " Um, who is this" I asked confused. " Wow you can't even recognize your own boyfriends voice." I mentally slapped myself. " Hey Miles, what's up?" I could hear him sigh.

" I wanted to ask you something." I got kinda scared. " Ok, what is it?" " Well, you seem to be having trouble with school work and, you won't let me help you, are you mad at me or something?" My eyes widen. " N-No I'm not mad at you, why would you think that?"

" I thought you were since I said no to studying with you." If I did study with him it wouldn't be studying that we did. " Miles it's ok I'm not mad." I said trying to reassure him. " Ok, that's good, so um, wanna study tomorrow, I can come over and we can do our homework." I frowned at hearing him say that. I can't study with him, but I don't wanna lie to him.

" S-Sorry I can't, I have to go to a stupid family reunion with my mom." I can feel his disappointment. Lying is probably the best thing I can do in this situation, not. " Oh, ok, maybe another time." I felt really bad. " Yeah sure" another lie. " Sorry I gotta go, my mom's calling me for dinner." God I fucked up. " Ok. I'll call you later." "Ok bye" and he hung up.

I'm a horrible boyfriend.

MILES P.O.V.

I have to admit I am a little sad that I he's busy. He needs some space, I understand that he probably doesn't wanna spend every second with me. I don't wanna make him mad.

Tomorrow I went to school and didn't really talk to Kyler. I pretty much kept my distance.

At the end of the day I quickly grabbed my stuff and left. I knew Kyler would probably wonder what's up, I'll figure something out.

When I got home my mom wasn't there. My dad was still at work till 4, it's only 3. I walked around the house until I found a note on the fridge.

Hey sweetheart, just went out for a bit to get some things. Be back soon! Luv you!

Well, better use this time wisely. I grabbed a book called Paper Towns off of the shelve. I've been wanting to read this but I haven't had the time.

KYLERS P.O.V

" Hey Jacob, wanna study with me for finals?" I just called Jacob to ask him to study. If I can't study with Miles might as well study will Jacob. "Yeah sure, you can just come over now." I instantly smiled. "Ok, I'll be over in a bit."

I hung up and grabbed my backpack. The walk to his house isn't that long. He doesn't live that far away. It takes him longer to get to school than it does me.

I didn't even knock when I got there, I just walked in. Me and Jacob are pretty much family. I've known him before kindergarten. And his family likes me too, they think I'm a good influence on him.

Jacob was sitting on the couch when I walked in. "Hey" he said. I just smiled and sat down nest to him. "So, wanna study" I said holding my textbook in front of his face. He giggled but said yes.

We studied for a few hours before my mom said I had to go home. Me and Jacob said goodbye and I left. I'm surprised, we actually got stuff done and didn't screw around like we usually do.

I got home and both my parents were eating dinner. I ate at Jacobs house so I wasn't hungry. I took my shirt off and put a pair of shorts on. I climbed into bed and feel asleep.