The ashes of my remains [Poetry]

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Where are you?
I wait for your answer
I wait for the sarcastic comment to fill my head
I wait for your insults to cloud my respect
But there's no answer within my head
It's empty and foreign to me now
I can't feel you disrespect
But you were all I had left of the bad
The past versions of myself
You had seen it all, broken me and left me torn
But now your voice is gone just like myself and every fall
I hated the voice in my head but how I mourn for you at best
You were all I had left
But even you turned to air
So now when I weep there's no fueling beast
Yet I'm still in defeat
Why won't you return to me?
-s