Fireworks [ A Josh Franceschi fanfic ]

*No way! Warped?*

For a week I stayed in a little hotel outside of Surrey, with no contact with anyone. Being young, it was hard to find a hotel that would let me stay without a guardian, so I took the first that said yes. My phone non-stop buzzed, whether it was Josh, Maddy or Matt texting to try and find me or speak to me in some way or sometimes my brother texting to tell me he was sorry. I shouldn't have just left like that but I was doing it for good enough reasons, right?

I sat on the sofa, with nothing else to do than be on Twitter, I smiled readying down the tweets myself and Josh used to send each other. I clicked on my mentions to find a lot of you me at six fans sending me 'get well soon' messages after probably seeing Josh visit me in hospital. I scrolled down some more to see a photo of Josh's hand in mine, in the hospital which read '@joshmeatsix; @alexameatsix get well soon lexa, I love you so damn much. Never forget that.' It was from five days ago while I was still in the hospital, I must've been asleep when he took the photo. His hand was wrapped tightly around mine, I had something clipped on to one of my fingers, and I was wearing one of those hospital gowns that I hated. I read down some more tweets, replying to as many as I could before falling into a deep sleep.

I woke up to the sound of my phone ringing, I picked it up to see the word 'underdog' show up next to a photo of me and Josh from our two month anniversary, when he surprised me and took me on tour. We looked so happy. Wow that felt like so long ago, I missed when things were like that, Out of nowhere I decided to answer the call.

"Hey Josh" I said, bracing myself for the guilt I was yet to feel.
"What the fuck?" He spoke, sounding angry and upset, mostly hurt. "So you finally decide to answer your phone? I've been so fucking worried, I can't believe you would do this lex, after everything." Here it was, the guilt. "I'm sorry." I whispered, "sorry isn't good enough! Anything could have happened to you since you left and no one would have any idea," He said harshly and then he spoke again. "You obviously don't care enough." My mood suddenly changed from upset to angry. "I don't care enough? Josh this is killing me, I'm doing it because I care too much. This is all my fault, everything that's happened between us with my family, is all my fault." I stopped letting the tears run down my face. Before he could reply I hung up, pulled the duvet over me and cried myself back to sleep.

The next day I decided I would go back to Surrey, I realised that Josh meant what he said. He wanted to be with me, and not many people would after everything that's happened. I wanted things to be like they used to be.

I walked up Josh's drive but froze at the door. What if he changed his mind after our conversation? Does he even want me here now? I snapped out of my thoughts and knocked loudly. After a few minutes of getting no answer I rang him, hoping for the best. When it went to answerphone I decided to leave a voicemail, something I really hated doing. "Hey josh its me, lexa, I'm back in Surrey, I'm at yours actually but you didn't answer, I just- well I'm sorry for everything and-" I was cut off by the door being opened by a tall blonde girl, she was pretty and stood wearing a white towel. I hung up the phone as she smiled down at me. "You are?" She said rudely. "Hey, I'm Alexa, Josh's girlfriend, is he here?" She smiled innocently. "He's in the shower actually, crazy night we had last night, I was just about to join him, I'll tell him you stopped by." She closed the door in a hurry. My heart felt like it had been ripped from my chest. Wow, so one night he tells me he loves me too much to let anything happen to me and the next morning he's with another girl. I could feel tears forming in my eyes but I blinked them away in a hurry and walked back down his drive, the taxi was no longer there, so I was outside Josh's house with no where to go.

"Alexa?" I heard someone call but I didn't turn around, I was too upset to talk to anyone so I carried on walking. "Aleeeexaaaa baby" he said again, before I realised there was only one person who said that to me, because he knew it made me laugh. I turned to face Matt from the other side of the street, smiling at me. But his smile quickly faded when he saw the redness of my eyes. He ran over to me and wrapped his arms tightly around me. "Matt" I smiled and hugged him back. "Tell me what's wrong," He pulled me to sit on a bench where I could spill my feelings to him. I told him everything and his face turned from sympathetic to angry. "what the fuck?" Was his main reaction, before he reached for his phone to dial Josh's number, on loud speaker may I add. "Matt I was sleeping, what do you want?" He said in a low voice. I thought I heard a girl giggle in the background, but i wasn't so sure so I looked to Matt for confirmation, and he nodded slightly. Matt started rambling on about everything I told him 5 minutes before. "Josh." I finally spoke, Matt shut up for a minute while we waited for Josh to reply. "Alexa! Please, come back to mine, I can explain everything." I still wasn't over the feeling after I spoke to the girl at his door. "Explain what? That a girl was around yours last night, stayed over and then joined you for a shower in the morning? I don't get it, I know you're angry at me but doing this?" I paused he sigh, "nothing happened between me and her, she was here with Chris, but she's was very drunk last night and obviously mixed up our names, she was with Chris this morning too, they both stayed." I suddenly felt like such an idiot. "I-um" I stuttered, not knowing what to say. "I'm sorry." Relief passed through my body, I turned to Matt and he looked at me with a smile. "Alright Josh, she'll be round in 5" he said and hung up. "I'm sorry Matt." I said with an apologetic look. "For what? It wasn't your fault! Plus, I could tell that you were devastated." I gave him another hug and we walked back to Josh's, this time I was feeling a lot better.

"Hey." I said as Josh opened the door this time, he didn't say anything but stared at me for a minute and pulled me into his arms. Our lips collided and his hands cupped around my cheeks. "I'm sorry for what I said." He said as we broke apart. "No, you had every right. I'm the one that should be sorry, and I am. I'm sorry for leaving, I'm sorry for doubting how you felt about me, I'm sorry for everything." He shook his head and his lips crashed onto mine once again. "I love you, things are going to get better for us, i promise." He said in between light kisses. I nodded and wrapped my arms around his waist.

"So, where's Chris?" Matt asked, and we turned around to see Matt stop standing by the door. My cheeks went red and I buried my face into Josh's chest and he just laughed at me. "They're still in the shower actually, personally I don't like her, but each to their own I guess." He said and I smiled up at him.

"Um, Lexa, while you were gone, we kinda got given some news." Josh said, Matt had now left, and so had Chris and Megan, who I was introduced to again. We were sat cuddled on the sofa while watching the third Harry Potter, just enjoying each other's company. "Oh yeah? What's that?" I asked still facing the TV. "Well, we have another tour coming up, it starts next week and it's another long one, I said I'd think about it.." He continued and I turned to face him now, "oh, how long for?" I asked, trying to stay happy after hearing it was a long tour. "4 months, it's across UK and USA again, but this time it's warped tour, so 2 months in the UK and 2 months in America." He looked down at me, my smile even wider. "No way! Warped? Josh you've been dreaming of this since forever! Well that's what Matt told me anyway, after we just got together, but seriously, don't think about it, you have to do it." He smiled at my enthusiasm and leaned towards me for a kiss. "But I'll miss you if you don't come, and I can't ask you to give up even more of your college time to come with me, it's your future we're talking about here." He frowned and looked confused when he saw my mutual expression. "Wait, so if I don't go to college I can come?" I asked shocked and he nodded. "Well, I kinda already dropped out? It's just that the only reason I liked going was to see you guys, and unlike most people I met there, I don't have parents to make me go, to them I'm just the lucky girl who could live by herself at 16. They don't know that I didn't have a choice.." Josh soon cut me off from rambling and grinned. "So you're coming?" I nodded grinned back at him.