insecure

7

I walked home from the library confused. thoughts of saying something wrong crossed my mind several times but I couldn't figure it out. maybe she has a fear of being touched? that would explain it, but it's very rare.

when I got home my mom had fixed dinner, and can you guess what it was? yes, lasagna. I ate it with happiness and talked about my day at school with my mom, but I didn't mention the part with Amanda because it was her private life.

I haven't told you about my life, I have told you more about Amanda's than my own. we can start by saying things about my family. it's me, my mom and that's it. I wanted a cat when I was little but my mom is allergic to them.

my dad left my mom at the altar before I was born. it's okay though, the wedding was because mom was pregnant with me. she's not mad at him for leaving, he was a mean person that wasn't ready to be a father. at least that's what my mom told me.

in school I hang out with a few of my friends. Andrew and his twin brother Noel (no they don't look the same) and then there's Sarah. my mom wants me to date her. I've told her several times that she has a girlfriend from another school but mom just thinks that's an excuse even though it isn't.

our little group isn't really popular at school. we are not like the bullied ones, we are kind of the weird people who likes movies. a lot of movies. people don't pick at us for it, most of the school doesn't even know our names.

maybe I will make new friends now after I talked to Amanda. I mean, will she be with me at school and introduce me to her friends and her boyfriend? I won't know that until tomorrow I thought and I fell asleep with a picture of me with the "popular" kids.

//an// yey now you know a little bit more about the main character :) //