insecure

15

we were walking down the street to go  and get some pizza. I had my hand in hers, and I liked it. and don't you dare say that I have a crush on her cause I don't. yet.

she told me about her day and then she tried to make me laugh by her awful jokes.

-"seriously? is that what you find funny?" I said chuckling.

-"shut up, your mom jokes are hilarious to everyone. you are just a boring person" she answered giggling.

-"that hurts to know. if you insult me again you won't get any pizza" I said and poked her side. she whimpered and then started to laugh.

her laugh was adorable.

when we were at the pizza place I asked her:

-"okay pizza queen pick a pizza and we will share"

she looked curious while looking at the menu. it was written on the wall so she walked over and pointed at the Hawaii pizza and I smiled. that's one of my favorites.

I ordered for us and we toke some soda and sat down I a booth. we sat close to each other and held hands. it was like our thing, to hold hands even though we were only friends.

after 15 minutes we got our pizza and we ate it. fast. it was like we could brake the world record on pizza eating. okay not that fast if I think about it.

-"so what do you wanna do now?" I said when we walked out.

-"I don't know, wanna go to my place?"

-"yeah sure, wanna watch a movie or something?" my "geekness" showed of. I couldn't  help it, I love movies.

-"yeah sure, you wanna go and rent one?" she asked with a smile. I forgot that she likes movies to, something we have in common.

-"rent one? don't you have netflix or some other streaming site?"

-"oh umm, we can't really afford that..." she said and frowned. I was hit by guilt and looked down at the ground.

why didn't I think of that, now she's sad. god job Max, god job.

-"sorry, I forgot that..." I said and released her hand. I figured she was mad at me now.

always when I say something wrong to my friends they get mad and won't talk to me. for example if I forgot to watch a movie, they would be pissed and ignore me for a week.

but this wasn't them, this was Amanda. and she didn't get at mad at me. instead she took my hand in hers and lead me to the closest movie store.

-"are you into sci-fi? romantic movies? comedy?" she asked and walked down the different sections with movies.

-"I don't care that much, you can chose anything you want to watch. IF you pick a movie that don't contain to much drama. those chick flicks makes me want to vomit" I said shivering.

-"perfect, then we are watching a horror movie. that's my favorite genre"
she said and slowly ran to the right sections if the store with me following close behind.

we picked one of the paranormal activity, I'm not sure which one. and then we were at her house. I sat down on the couch and she put the movie inside the player.

then she walked to the couch and sat beside me. close beside me.

-"can we cuddle so I don't get scarred? please" she said with puppy eyes. who could say no to that.

so I took my arm around her hip and went down a bit with her cuddling to my side.

I said yes because I didn't want to get scarred either. at least that was my excuse if someone asked.

//an// I'm jealous. I want a cuddle buddy while watching a scary movie to :( //