insecure

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my mind was racing at this point. in my hands I was holding a book full of suicide plans from a girl I didn't know. do I help her? should I let her die? if I would help her, how? but how could I contact her? I mean I only knew that her name was Amanda and that she goes to my school.

I got my computer and logged in to my schools website. from there I tried to search for her. that didn't work. okay when I think of it now I know it was stupid. why would the school post personal information about the students on they're website? but what if I went back to school now?

I walked out of my house and started to drive to school cause it was closing in a few minutes. in my hand I was holding the notebook so in case I would find her I would at least be able to give it back.

I went to the school reception and said:
-"Hi, umm do you have the addresses for all students here?

the women who was packing her things for the day looked me in the eye. she was not happy I could tell, all she wanted was to go home. then she turned around to get a folder and opened it.

-"Who are you searching for?" she asked me.

-"Her name is Amanda, but I don't know her last name so if you could look for any girl named Amanda that would be great"
she closed the folder, turned around again and picked up another one. then she started flipping through the pages.

after a few minutes she gave me the folder and pointed at one page with photos of students. there was 3 Amanda at this school. I recognized one of them and showed the woman.

once again she turned around and picked up the first folder and then she found what I was looking for. Amanda West with her address. I quickly thanked the woman and ran back to my car.

20 minutes later I was standing outside her house afraid of what was about to happen next. I opened the notebook once more and read the first page again. I heard something and looked up from the book to see Amanda closing her front door and walking to where I was standing.

//an//Hi guys! I'm trying to write when I'm able to even though it's not that many reading. but if you do read I hope you like the story so far. have a nice day//