insecure

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you know the moments that you really don't want to happen, like maybe knock into a stranger in the school hallway. okay that happens to everyone, even me.

a normal Tuesday morning after math class I was on my way to my locker. yeah I know big deal right. anyway, I bumped into this girl (by then I didn't know her name) and I accidentally managed to get all her books to fall on to the floor. great.

I just wanted to be nice so I started to pick up her books. she did not like that, not at all.
-"Hey that's my books, do not touch them. am I clear??" she said.

I didn't say anything back just dropped the books I was holding to fell onto the floor. she quickly picked them up, and while she was doing it I studied her face. she was cute I have to admit that, but I really thought she should wear make-up like the rest of the girls in the school does.

when she was done she mumbled something I didn't hear and then she started to walk away as fast as she could. I started walking again but this time I stepped on something. I looked down to my feet to realize that the girl forgot a notebook. I turned around to look after her but she was already gone.

out of curiosity I picked up the notebook and read the name at the front. "Amanda West". this wasn't a book for school notes I could tell. I thought that maybe it could have been her diary or something in that way. it wasn't I can tell you.

once again I was curious and started to flip through the pages in the book. I didn't understand what the point of it was. okay I didn't really look so close into it but from what I saw it was just different days, times and places. I shut the book and didn't really worry about it much. I put the notebook in my locker and grabbed my books for the next lesson and then started walking towards the classroom.

during the lesson my mind drifted to the notebook and what those days could have meant. I was getting more and more interested the more I thought about it. and I knew that eventually I would have to look in that book again and figure out what's going on.