insecure

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after about 30 minutes of talking to this girl I found out that she's the cheerleaders queen in our school, she dates Aron (the typical popular guy in our school) and that she have a dog named Charlie. I didn't want to jump right into the "big questions" so after this small talk I decided to bring it up.

-"so, ummm. about the whole notebook thing..." I tried with.
she just stared at me for a few seconds and looked really confused.

-"why do you umm, you know. try?"
she sighed and looked down at her fingernails and started talking.

-"when I grew up I thought that everything was okay, I mean that my family loved me and that I could be the happiest person in the world. I could've been if it weren't for my mom. when I turned 12 she started yelling at me constantly about how I'm a failure to the family, that I was a mistake with no talents. I tried to not take it that seriously, to not take the hate"
she went quiet for a few seconds and then she started again.

-"after about a month or two I just started to say that I agreed with her. that I also thought that I'm worthless. and you know how sometimes you can say something to yourself so many times that you start believing it. that's what happened. and now I'm here. I think that I'm incapable of doing anything right. I can't help it, I wish I could but I'm stuck in the thought of myself being a total failure"

I didn't know what to respond or do. after a few seconds I put my hand over hers and smiled to her as I was telling her that I could be here for her. she looked up at me smiled for a second and then she removed her hand from mine and stood up.

-"sorry I, I have to go. it was nice meeting you...."

-"Max" I said still smiling at her.

-"yeah, I'll see you tomorrow" she said and then she ran away.

I was left sitting there without knowing if I did something wrong.

//an// I'm back to updating more often yay, I really hope the story is at least okay to read so far. I've never written a story on wattpad before so yeah. have nice day :) //