𝙄𝙣 𝙬𝙝𝙞𝙘𝙝 𝙖 𝙜𝙞𝙧𝙡 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙖 𝙡𝙞𝙛𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙙𝙞𝙨𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙚 𝙤𝙣𝙡𝙮 𝙝𝙖𝙨 𝙪𝙣𝙩𝙞𝙡 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙚𝙣𝙙 𝙤𝙛 𝙨𝙪𝙢𝙢𝙚𝙧 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙣𝙤𝙗𝙤𝙙𝙮 𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬𝙨
( john b x oc )
( rafe x oc)
AU and doesn't follow plot of show at all
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it had been four days since she told john b, and ever since she got back from her dad's, he had not left her alone for a single second
he was at her house in the morning. he was calling her in the afternoon. he was texting her at night
it was like he had her on some kind of around the clock surveillance, like she was a ticking time bomb he had to personally make sure didn't go off
and at first she got it. she really did
finding out your best friend, your first love, is dying? it's not something you just brush off
she knew it would mess with him and that he'd be upset, but this? this was something else. she was losing her mind
as she sits outside she flips the page in her book, or at least pretends to. she hasn't really been reading for the last twenty minutes because she can feel john b's eyes burning into her from across the yard
she's sitting in the shade, her legs tucked up on the wooden chair trying to enjoy the afternoon
or she was at least, until he showed up at her house again, and started watching her like a hawk
"john b," she sighed and spoke up finally, lowering her book. "what are you doing?"
he didn't even try to pretend or lie "just making sure you're okay."
"i'm sitting outside reading. how dangerous could that possibly be?"
he doesn't answer, just crosses his arms, brows drawn together like he's thinking about something. it's been like this all week. if she's sitting, he's watching her sit
if she's walking, he's standing too close in case she falls. if she so much as rubs her temples, he's grabbing her water and making her drink it
"ok you're being weird" she mutters, flipping the book shut and resting it on her lap. "you have a life, john b. you don't have to babysit me."
"i know that." he huffs, running a hand through his messy hair
"i just, i can't stop thinking about you riah. every time i try it's like, like i remember all over again and it doesn't feel real."
she doesn't know what to say to that. she knew this was going to happen
but she still doesn't know how to handle it
"well it is real" she says quietly. "but i'm fine right now okay? you don't have to keep acting like i'm about to fall apart."
his jaw tenses. "but what if you do?"
azariah let out a heavy sigh, did he really need to say that? because now she was getting mad
"then i'll handle it" she said firmer now. "i'm the one with cancer, john b not you. you don't have to carry this for me."
he shook his head, looking frustrated. "but i want to."
"i can't just act like everything is normal when it's not. you think i can just go surfing and drinking and pretend i don't know what's gonna happen?"
azariah goes silent and starts ignoring him, making things awkward between them
she feels sick and she most definitely doesn't want to have this conversation
"i just want things to feel normal john b " she speaks quietly staring at her hands
"andmore importantly i want to have a normal summer with you and i can't do that if you keep treating me like i'm made of glass."
he exhales sharply, staring up at the sky "ok i'm sorry," he mutters. he accepts his wrongs, but he just can't accept her reality
"i just—" he trails off, shaking his head. "i know" she whispers as she cuts him off
she knows exactly what he's about to say
and quiet frankly she doesn't and to hear it, but she gets it. she really does
in john b's mind he's not doing this to be annoying he's doing this because he loves her. because the thought of losing her and having to accept her slipping away is eating him alive
but she can't live with him breathing down her neck. constantly being looked after isn't living
she wants to be treated like an actual human until and not a patient
not she's genuinely in the hospital
so she reaches her hand out, waiting until he finally looks at her again
"you don't have to be the one fix this" she tells him with a frown "you can't, no one can fix this. all you can do is just be here and treat me like me."
"please that's all i'm asking."
he swallows hard, nodding, but she can tell it's killing him. "okay. i will try because i love you " he finally says.
she doesn't believe him on the trying part , but she lets it go for now
because the part of him loving her is true, and she knows it. but does he really love her?
or will that all come crumbling down too....
MYLES SPEAKS!!
hi guys!!
hmmm what could the ending possibly mean
well welcome back to this book! i took a little break from this so i could pre write some chapters so i could put them out quickly for yall to read
because i have left you hanging for wayyy too long and this book deserves some love too
see you guys in chapter twenty three and i hope you enjoy the story!
