MY DECISION

IV

I stared at the direction and found him standing on black coat, his hand folded at his back. His look serious and straight in me.
" Were went you... Where have you been??..." I asked walking to him. " Around..." He muttered running his hand at his hand. We both walked back inside his room.
" Where were you???" I asked back. But he said no word. " Are you okay???..." But he still did not say a word. At a point he begin shivering.
" What's wrong??... You are shivering!?
" Nothing.. I'm not shivering, I'm okay.
" No..you aren't.." he stood up walking towards the dressing room, he pull out another coat putting it on again. And it jeep me in deep thought. It's hot weather and his felling cold. I know he wasn't feeling good but he doesn't want to tell me.
I turned to the door to leave to my room and give him some time Maybe when feel like talking then he can come to me and tell me what the problem was.
" You are leaving tomorrow!"
I stoped, turned, staring at him. I was confused about it.
" Leaving to were??.." I asked back.
" Back home, your parents want you back, they are missing you and you need...
" I'm not leaving anyway..I have no second Home, this is my home so I have no idea what you are saying ". He stood up walking to me. Holding my shoulder.
" Emmah..try to understand....
" nothing to understand..what about you??..
" I will stay back" my gaze widen
" You will stay back and ...I will go???...
" Yes..I don't know..but you have to go move on!"
Those last words were like arrows in my heart. My eyes instantly feed with countless tears. I push him away, taking steps back.
" You want to go find someone else??... What have I done to you??" I cried out, not able to hold on any long.
" No...I'm....
" Don't lie to me..I'm not leaving to anywhere." It was my word. I wasn't going anywhere. I rather die with him than leave to anywhere. He quickly pull me to his arms. Crying and sobbing.
I didn't know when I fall asleep.
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It was the next day, I jerk up scared that I have returned to my people but no.. I was holding him so tight not wanting to let him go. We still lyed on bed.
" Emma.. it's morning.." his voice spoke but I suddenly went back to sleep.
Inside my sleep he was waking me up..
" Emma..let go have come breakfast.. and I murmured out some words. He was shaking me to wake up and that was how I also saw my physical boy being shaked.
" Emma....Emmah...." Not wanting to wake up but the voice call me. But suddenly it become another voice not the voice of xiaofei but a crying voice like I was dead. I slowly peep out but it was the face of someone..I refuse to believe that.
" Emmah... Wake up..." It's sounded like a woman's voice. I slowly got my eyes open, firstly, I wasn't in the room of last night and secondly...I wasn't seeing xiaofei but...my.. parents..
" Were is xiaofei??.." I asked out confused.
" Stop talking nonsense.." mom muttered.
" Why do you leave us .. you left home, making everyone worried" she cried out " it never took me much time to discover I was back home. My heart pounding inside my chest.
' noo......" I yelled out she try to hold me but I kicked out. More tears running down my check.why have xiaofei done this to me. Even when I told him I don't want to come back.. I stared round.
" We're is Angel???" I asked but mom got that Confused look. My gaze went to the man standing beside the window, his look cold on me. ' my dad ' how I hate to see him now he had cause much pains to me. Only want to get me married to some arrogant idiot.
" My child ..." That was from him , taking steps towards me. " I don't think you will ever forgive me but I'm sorry, I was only selfish, don't want to care about how you feels...I was blind by the physical and material things " I couldn't say a thing, all I wanted was xiaofei .
Mom and Dad later left the room but mom later cane back with a tray , she placed it on the table beside the bed before leaving, I got the plate open, it was my favorite meal but never in that state to have a view of it. I sat on the bed, my arms folded at my knells, sobbing.
After so much tears, the door finally got open and Mon peep through the door before coming in. She sat next to me staring at me
" Please..my child forgine us...it won't repeat itself anymore" I was speechless, no matter how upset I get, I have to forgive my parents
And rather transfer the anger to xiaofei because he cost all this. I lean my head on moms labs sobbing while she ran her hand on my back pathing me till I fall into a deep sleep.
In my sleep, I had a dream ' xiaofei ' he was walking towards me from a distance and when he was close , I try to go hug him but something hit him away and fall to the ground , I quickly rush to him, his mouth cover with blood, his blood,
" What's wrong???" I yelled shaking him helplessly.
" Emma...I'm sorry..for everything..I'm sorry for making you go through this..I cost everything" he cried out pouring out more blood.
" No..you didn't do anything.. I didn't go through anything, I'm happy with you.. being with you make me happy and I enjoy it.." that was me crying, shaking him.
" No..I have cost you pains .. I deserve to die and I think it's time for me to leave.. Angel is with grand pa and mie and she's fine here .... Don't cry Emma, be happy..." And he died. I couldn't believe he was dead, I shake him to wake up but he wasn't responding, I yelled, I cry, I shouted, I sobb.
He's gone, so stop shaking him and crying yourself to death!!" A voice spoke behind me, I turned quickly staring very hard, there stood a man, tall and huge with a crown on his head and a staff that looks like fork , he was also in tears.
" What are you???" I asked staring at him confused, he seems bit to mind my question...
" I haven't been a good father when he was alive but I have come to take responsibility now.." his voice echoing everywhere.
" You are his ... Father???.. no.. you can't be.." I stood up staring at him with so much wrath" how can a father be do wicked to his son??.. don't you have sense of pity??.. humor, what type of a father are you" I yelled out hitting him but he stood as if not concerned about me hitting him.
" In everything I do..I have my reasons and I hope he understands that too..." He muttered
" What stupid reasons??... That his the last child???..." I couldn't even stop yelling and crying.
" He killed his mom... His birth has brought much pains to the people.. immediately he came out if his worm, she was gone..why???..." This was the first time I saw how angry he was, his face written with wrath and pains
" So I have to take him away and the little child, don't mind if you come with us..?" He drove out a questioning look.
,You can't take him away...his not dead..his still alive.
" Emma......" A voice call out that I wake up jumping out of the bed.
I was seriously sweating.
" Who is alive Orr death??" Mom asked out in questions
I stood up walking towards the widow because I saw something white, it was a paper, I took it staring at it.

" What is this??.. she asked and I shake off my head to say is don't know, slowly I got it open and it was written like a letter and the first thing I saw was xiaofei name, my heart skip a bit scared of something.
I stared down the paper reading it inside me, but it's content only bike me down, unable to finish the reading. My hands shaking helplessly and body, mom stared confused at my, then she took the paper for me staring at it, but she read it louder.

Xiaofei.

Emma, it's me mie, I had to make a long and terrible journey to come here. Finding you, I won't say it's easy because I have no much powers. I have promise myself to deliver this message before anything happens to me, and now that I have seen you then I will die a good death.
There had been much war since you left, maybe xiaofei knew of it. Attack by unknown axe....but we couldn't fight back because our powers were taken away from us, even that of Xiaofei and grandpa.
Sorry I say this. Angel is dead, grandpa is dead and... Xiaofei is also dead. But I don't know about me but I might be dead by the time you read this, I'm so sorry, Xiaofei said you should move on. And leave happily thake care, we will miss you.
Mie.

I couldn't believe this was happening, that means my dream was true, he was dead and everyone, but why..why will he just let me in that manner. I was only feeling cold and shivering, my eyes red and mom couldn't understand my PAINS

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