MY DECISION

VI

I have been on bed thinking, many thoughts keep flashing and running through my brain and mind.. how possible, I'm getting married to a merman prince😱 everything is really confusing and complicated, am tried of living. I think all this is a dream, I need to walk up before something happen to me.. I'm the only child and I don't want to hurt my parents.. was this how to thank them for being good parents?, Getting married to a merman simply means never going to see my parents and my kids are going to be one.. and me.....❓❓❓...don't know what will happen to me.

Everything is really getting me crazy, the door got open and mom walk in, I sat upright trying to arrange my hair, she walk close to the bed and had her sit next to me.
" Are you alright?" She asked while I only nodded.
" Let me get your meal" she stood up walking towards the door
" Mom!!....." I called out, she stop then turned towards my direction.
" I need to speak to you, will you let me....
" Eme...let me get your meal first.. so you can have your medicine " she muttered leaving the room , I only fall back on bed staring at the ceiling, nothing really so frustrating than this. Are my parents really going to let me married a merman, but why will they accept so fast, why is the future frustrating me this way?...why will it do this to me. The door got open and mom walk in with a tray. She got the plate open and on it is my favorite" RAMEN noodles soup which I usually love eating almost everyday with the native wooden fork, mom roll the noddles in the fork bringing it towards my mouth to feed me but I push it aside. I wasn't in that mood for now.
" I'm not hungry..." I hurry to say out. But she gave out a questioning look at me.
" Why...you know you have to take your medicine so you can get better"
" Mom!!... " I called out." are you guys going to let me get married to him?..why?.. I know mom and dad aren't happy about it so let me handle it."
She only gave out a worrying look at me .
" Are you sure you can do this " she asked .
" Don't worry.. xiaofei won't get married to me when I don't want to.. I don't want to be different from other's." Mom only stared more worried. I can't really imagine myself getting married to a merman, despite the area of care and love, a merman never cheat, that's their rules , I couldn't just spent the rest of my life with a fish.. yes they look like fish, what about my kids.
" In any decision you make, I'm fine with it." Mom muttered out
" Have your meal now " she finally muttered bringing it close to my nose.
" Mom.. it smelling " I muttered feeding disgusting.
" Smelling??... It's your favorite meal."
" Mom take it away!!.. it smells really bad" finding my way out of the bed. I just feel like throwing up, I rush towards the bathroom. I could feel her gaze on me.
" Are you okay? She asked out. Which I nodded, after about some seconds I was done I went back inside the room, I only feel shiver running down my spine, not having appetite at all. Mom really lean close to observe me but it seems not clear to her so she had to invite the physician.
At the early hour of the next morning, the physician was around checking up on me to find out what the problem with me. I didn't really understand what he was doing but he seems checking my palms, eyes and other things. After about some time, he stared at mom, mom throw out a questioning look at him but she demanded they step outside. That's how they step outside while I couldn't get to know what the problem with me.

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The door got open, but I didn't know who step in because I was inside the bathroom throwing up but I sence its mom.
" Eme...!!" Mom called out, I turned staring at her, she got that worrying face again, it's obvious it was a bad news.
" I'm I getting any better?" I asked out.
" You are pregnant for him Ema!!.." she cried out. I only smiled out, how possible I'm I pregnant for him, but I haven't spend anytime with him, da so why the pregnancy.
I stared at mom, giving her a warm smile then it disappear and a frown took over.
I drow a brow at her but she seems not to say anything.
" Mom we haven't make love with each other!"
" The transfer is a means of making love to a merman." She muttered really worried
...............
My eyes open wide, mom was seated beside me, dad was anywhere in the large room, mom has eailer inform me that I have be unconscious for days now.
" What happened to me?" I requested.
" You went unconscious since you heard you are pregnant for him.."
" Is it really true mom..??.." mom only nodded, I only remember falling back on bed, and then I didn't know what happened next. I wasn't going to fold my arms and watch this. I don't care of I'm pregnant but I have to safe my future, I will have to get rid of the child. I can't let the child come into existence, this is not o wanted.
I regain consciousness days after.
When I wake up, no one was inside the room, I was only there alone, I came down from the bed walking out of the room, I only want to step out to receive some fresh air. I had to rush back inside to cover myself properly. But I got back to the room xiaofei was seated on my bed. I got scared because I never saw him when he came inside.
" What are you doing here?." I gather the courage to ask. He saterd at me for sometime, then stood up walking towards me.
" I said what are you doing here, how did you get in here?.." I asked again but he ignored me walking towards me. I begin taking steps back, but I got close to the wall, before I could try escaping, he was already closed to me, pinning me to the wall. His closeness taking away my breath, I tried maintaining a straight face and also avoiding his gaze
" Have you change your mind wife??..." He muttered in a cold tone.
" .......I..I.. don't want..to get married to you .." I stammer out.but then I only heard a loud laughter, I stared him confused, how is he laughing, what's so funny that he had to laugh out.
" Them you are free to leave.." I couldn't believe he's asking me to leave.
" You want me to leave?.." I repeated it.
" Yess... You can leave if you want to..!"
" What about the child.?.." he drow out a brow at me.
" Who's child?.." I stared at him confused.
" I'm pregnant for you.." I never know why I was telling him this, I can decide to hide it from him.
" Then if you think you are pregnant for me, then you can keep the child and get married to me".
" No.. I can't get married to you..what is so hard that you find it hard to understand" I yelled out.
"Everything is hard to understand!!..." He yelled back at me. This was his first time yelling at me, was he that really upset, but who, because he can't be upset with me..he turned backing me.
" I'm sorry I put you this this.. sorry you have to face it because I won't leave you" this time his voice was calm.
" Xiaofei..!..you have to leave me.." I muttered before leaving, I was out to go look for a solution for my problem.