Silent Tears

Chapter 20

MONIKA'S POV

I didn't break up with Martin. I didn't want to. I love him so damn much. Besides, maybe it was just a mistake. Maybe they were both drunk that time. Kahit maaga pa nun Monika? I can't believe I'm arguing with myself. I'm convincing myself na, okay lang ang lahat, na okay lang ako kahit alam ko sa sarili ko na hindi.

Araw araw ako kinakatok ni kuya sa kwarto, araw araw ko din siyang di pinapansin sa labas ng kwarto ko. It's been 3 days pero nakakulong pa din ako sa kwarto. Pagbubuksan ko lang si kuya pag dala niya yung pagkain ko, di naman ako nagpapakamatay no. Sinasabayan niya din ako kumain dito sa kwarto ko, pero tahimik lang kami. Kasi every time he tries to start a conversation, I cut him off. I'm sorry kuya pero di ko kayang pag-usapan at ikwento sayo kung anong nangyari. Masyado kasing masakit.

FLASHBACK

As we're nearing the venue, my heart was racing and beating so loud. I don't know why. Dahil lang siguro sa kaba kasi baka ma-fail yung plano namin.

But I proved myself wrong.

Kasi imbis na si Michelle ang ma-surprise.

Ako ang na-surprise.

There I saw my boyfriend and my bestfriend kissing each other roughly and hungrily.

I walked out, I didn't even had the chance para makapag-paalam kay Denisse na aalis na ako.

I texted kuya Max as a reflex action.

To: Kuya Max

Kuya, pasundo na. Now na. Please?

I'm here sa coffee shop, near your school.

Thanks kuya. I love you.

Message Sent!

Pagkadating na pagkadating naming ni kuya sa bahay, dumiretso na ako agad sa kwarto at nagkulong.

END OF FLASHBACK

Kapag naaalala ko kung anong nangyrari, I always end up crying. Hindi dahil hindi ko matanggap na naghahalikan yung boyfriend ko at bestfriend ko. Oh come on sinong niloloko ko. Syempre di ko talaga matanggap, dagdag pa na hindi nagpaparamdam si Martin. Maybe somebody told them to stop kissing for a while kasi nakita ko sila.

Honestly, when I walked out that damn door sa bar I was expecting someone in particular to chase me. But who am I kidding? Hindi nga nila alam na nakita ko sila.

Maybe you're thinking kung bakit hindi ko alam na andun si Martin, actually alam ko kasi nagpapa-alam naman kami sa isa't isa. Ang hindi ko lang talaga inexpect ay yung scene na naabutan ko that day.

*ding dong*

I have no choice but to open the door, umalis kasi si kuya today may pasok. I wasn't expecting someonr to visit me today. Siguro after nung day nung "nangyari" dun ako nag-eexpect na pupunta man lang si Martin dito pero wala eh, pinapaasa ko lang sarili ko.

I opened the door and saw my "bestfriend"

"I'm sorry" she told me

"Okay" I told her and when I was about to shut the door he held it open

"We need to talk" she begged

"I don't wanna talk Michelle, don't you get that?"

"I'm just so sorry"