Erm Body Rant?

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by SC3N3-SLVT

by SC3N3-SLVT

I curse my body forever for how disproportionate it is

Why is all my fat stored in my fucking stomach and thighs

The weights in this chapter are probably inaccurate cuz I have an old ass broken weighing scale but it won't be far off. I think it measures you lighter than you are.

Like I've gained weight, like, a lot, cuz erm, binge eating. I mean, a month ago I was 49kg which is 108lbs (my lowest ever!) and then erm now I'm around 55kg.... (121lbs)

But I'm not even chubby, like no I have average arms and pretty average face fat but I look like I've swallowed a bowling ball and I have to stand with my feet shoulder width apart to get my thighs to not touch

I look PREGGO

Speaking of, I didn't get my period this month.... Is that because I had a day where I ate nothin?

But like JDJCHSKSJSI

Ist so ANNOYING

I mean I was never ever flat stomached anyway, like I've always been FOOKING podgy, but WHYYYEYEYEYEYEYE JUST FUCKING GO SOMEWHERE ELSE FOR ONCE OML

I also noticed I have larger calves than everyone else and I like to make believe it's muscle but it's not TwT like I thought I was average but ALLLL my friends have like tiny ass calves

Then again, all my friends are anorexic, so maybe that's something...

I mean, I'm borderline (haha) anorexic too so that's something. Only thing is I starve myself for a few months and then gain it all back by binging for a few weeks TwT

God I have like every eating disorder ever while not having an eating disorder because it's not serious enough to consider a disorder and I'm also average healthy weight so brrrr

I dread to think how massive I was when I was 57ish kg (126lbs) last year. I have very few photos left but I had like 19 chins