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My Weird Af Eating Habits

idk if i need to trigger warning eating disorders... i dont personally believe myself to have one but i feel its needed ig TwT

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so my goal for a day is 700cals

i did so for a week then for the next three weeks had over 3500 per day (didnt count specifics cuz id hate myself) 

i USUALLY eat around 1300 (i usually go a few weeks on this before overeating)

first two days at school i was ranging 500-800 (idk whats in my dinner so i average 700)

third day i had 329..... 

today im on 1108 (while im not so happy, i also got scared into it)

this morning i had three tablespoons of cornflakes (shoveled the rest in the box again) and a mini roll

i was on 150 and i was extremely sad about it (tried making myself vomit but it didnt work) then, obviously, gave away all my food that id packed (apple slices and slice of bread) away. but my friend said if i went 15 weeks on 700, id die. that scared me

i dont want to die, i just really dont want to eat. they said id have to get 1000 a day and like wtf hell no. but i guess i did it. i feel quite happy about eating now, as i dont wish to die. 

so in the space of a day i went from pushing bulimia to food addict- 

OdD 

but EXCEPT FOR WEEKENDS im aiming for 700-800 a day (weekends 1800-2200 like recommended) 

i just want to know what the minimum i can go on is without me nearing death. 

i am considering going 700 for either AS LONG AS IT TAKES FOR ME TO BE THE WEIGHT I WANT (7.7 stone, im currently 8.2) ORRR if that doesnt work ill stop at 2 months since thats halfway to death. after that ill gradually raise it to 1600 a day

but if anyone knows exactly how long specific calories takes to kill u and stuff like that id like to know, i wish not to die, i wish to however be as skinny as i can (while not being complete bone)