Fate's Magic

34:- Relief

SUHAANA SINGHANIA POV:-

"This-this doesn't make sense- You..you and your sister should have been dead!!! "

The moment i heard this...My blood ran cold, my body stiffened. No it..can't be..the accident..meri puri zindagi jis cheez ke liye mai khud ko kosti rahi..apne aap ko blame karti rahi..

Raaton ki neend uda Li...vo...accident nahi tha.. My sister...didn't die because of me but these fucking assholes..

Saara..was murdered...

I was processing this and the knife dropped from my hand...my breathing quickened a bit...

I couldn't save raj..i count save saaraa..she was ruthlessly murdered by them..i couldn't do anything..

The memories of that night rushed back to me..
If only I was more careful..if only I was not a stupid damn useless person she would be alive..she would be here..

I have spent every damn day of my life... blaming myself for her death...missing her..silently screaming inside... She not only left but took a part of me with her... My childhood with her..even my will to live with her...

All the plans..we made..all the places we loved.. everything was gone with one hit.. i lost my parent's love.. respect and the most important...my other half..my partner...

I would do anything to be with her again..to just see her once and give her a hug..to tell her i love her..and I can never forget her...to tell her how much I miss her...atleast one good bye..

People expected me to not be hurt about this...to just forget her and everything that happened

Par ye sab kahan sikhaya jata hai..ye move on karna, loved ones ko khona..kahan sikhaya jata hai

Move on...parents ne pyaar nahi diya move on karo, bestfriend ne betray kiya move on karo, padhai ki tension, career ki tension...behen mr gayi..move on karo

But kis kis cheez sei move on karun... The fact that she is gone iss sei..vo garden, ghar, purane toys har cheez har cheez uski yaad dilati hai..taste pai chalti gaadiyan, when I see two sisters together vo sab..

Kaise move on karu..aaj tak every time I smile or be even a bit happy I get jit with guilt instantly..lagta hai i am forgetting my sister..I am forgetting her and going forward..

I can't forget what happened..I don't mind being the giver but what to do when I have nothing to give?!!!

Muje kon dega recharge hone ka time..kon dega cheezein accept karne ka time..

My mind was all over the place and then..i felt something pressed against my head from behind,

The cold metal pressed against my head. My breath hitched. My body stiffened.

Vijay's voice was still ringing in my ears. "You... you and your sister should have been dead!"

The weight of his words crushed me. Years of guilt, pain, and sleepless night..shattered in a single moment. The accident... the thing I had blamed myself for, the thing that stole Saara from me... was never my fault.. The thing i blamed myself my whole life..was all a lie...

Saara was murdered.

My fingers trembled. The knife slipped from my grasp, falling on the floor making a thud but the only thing i could hear was sara's scream from that night.

I couldn't save Raj. I couldn't save Saara...I am just a failure , i couldn't be a good sister, a good daughter, a good person..now not even a good wife.

I spent my life drowning in guilt when all this time..these monsters took her from me. They took not only her but a part of me with her.. our memories, my attachment from my home, my parent's love..my peace..my everything.