Fate's Magic

8:- it's my fault

AUTHOR'S POV:-

It's been now 3 months since their marriage. Suhaana has gotten a lot closer to Raj's family. Especially the trio. She felt a special connection to them as if they were long lost siblings.

Not only this these past months she got a bit close  to Raj. They haven't had any physical contact but he could see her slowly coming out of her shell.

But something was bothering suhaana. She still hadn't got the papers of the garden. The garden that held a lot of memories. The garden which was the whole reason behind her saying yes to this marriage.

Today was a usual Sunday. Suhaana spent the day helping around the house and with the family members.

But her peace was interrupted by a phone call.

SUHAANA SINGHANIA POV:-

Today was one of days which make me feel at peace.. I was in our room bickering with Raj.

For some reason I find comfort in our bickering. It's a weird feeling. Suhaana stop it shrug it off. My peace was interrupted by a phone call.

I looked at the id and said " Raj I have to take this " and went to the balcony. "Huh aapke lover ka phone aa rha hai kya?" He asked with a dramatic gesture. "Meine kab bola you are calling? " I said and walked out leaving him there processing.

I picked up the call and said "finally. Where are my papers, you told me I can get them after 1 months. It's been freaking 3 months now." 

"About the papers.. I am selling that garden. Jo hua hai vaise bhi vo tumhari hi galti thi. You don't deserve to have them. Kuch din baat I will get a buyer. " Said my father casually leaving me processing. Did.. did he just say that.. he is selling it.

"You..you..promised me.. it's..the only thing I hav..e.. left.. sell it To..me I-I will give you all the money " I said having trouble breathing.

"It was all your fault in the first place. Bhulo mat suhaana..she is gone because of you. Na hi tum ek achhi beti bani na hi behen..insaan toh dur ki baat hai. You are just a worthless piece of crap."

These were the last words I heard before he hung up. I fell on my knees with his words ringing in my ears. I had struggle breathing. Shit shit shit no no not again.

My eyes were filled with tears, I had struggle breathing.. all my memories were hitting me like a truck. Just then I myself in someone's embrace.

RAJ RAGHUVANSHI POV:-

I had to go office today but I saw that she is at home so I just pushed back the meeting.

We spent the whole day with my family. Ofcourse I bickered with her throughout.

Every interaction I have with her just flutters my heart. I thought I couldn't feel anything but her..

It feels like everytime see her the world stops for me.. all I can see is her.

In evening we were bickering again when her phone rang and her expression changed

" Raj I have to take this " she said while getting off bed. Who is it.. I said
"Huh aapke lover ka phone aa rha hai kya?" I love teasing her.

If someone dares to even look at her I will freaking scratch their eyes out.
But what she said left me, THE RAJ RAGHUVANSHI flustered

"Meine kab bola you are calling? " she said and went to balcony.

Oh my god what is she doing to me.

I was cleaning the bed when I heard her yelling on the call but what I saw the momment I entered the balcony broke me to the core .

Her on the floor crying and struggling to breathe while trembling badly.
I rushed towards her and held her in my embrace.

"Suhaana baby..baby..you are okay..look at me.. " "just breathe baccha just breathe " I said rubbing her back.

"R-raj it's my my fault.. everything Is my fault.. everything is my fault.. she-she is gone because of me.. now the last thing thing I have of her is is gone.. leave leave me Raj.. yo-u yo- u will leave me too plea-se.. i-i- have been living in hell already plea-se " she cried hiding her face in my chest trembling badly.

"No no baby mei hu na..noone will hurt you anymore...I will take care of everything" I said calming her down

After 20 minutes she finally calmed down. She hugged me like a koala and I picked her up.

She was clenching onto my tshirt. My heart was breaking seeing her this way.

I made her sit on my lap and made her drink water. "I..I.. am sorry.. " she said while tears left her eyes.

I said and wiped her tears gently. "Meri jaan aise roiye mat aapko aise Dekhkar meri jaan nikal rahi hai "

"Please don't leave me.. " she said while hugging me. I wrapped my hands around her and said "Aapko chodke Kahan jaunga hmm?? "

I sat on the bed with her laying her head on my lap snuggling into my waist.

I patter her head till she fell asleep.
Who hurt you Suhaana..I won't let anyone hurt you anymore.

This was a marriage of convience but I can't seem to stay away from you..

What have you done to me mrs. Raghuvanshi...

I will protect you. Anyone who dares to hurt you will be six feet under the ground.

I didn't dare to move an inch to not disturb her sleep.

And I soon drift to sleep with her in my arms.

AUTHOR'S POV:-

Suhaana has always been made to feel like she was worthless. There is more to her than she shows.

Never in her life someone helped her the way Raj did today. Suhaana felt herself unwrapping her wounds in front of him.

The thought of someone being close to her, the thought of someone making her happy scared her but what scared her the most was.. love and care.

She drifted away from everyone and made a wall which noone could break.

But today she felt something new.. comfort and hope..?

With comfort and hope she found a new fear..of getting hurt again, of being broken again.

She didn't have any energy left to get hurt. She changed herself so much that she forgot who the real her was.

But under all the coldness , attitude and boldness was a sensitive, vulnerable girl who only yearned for love and care but now was too scared go get it.

Will Raj become her reason to live or will he take away all her reasons..

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AUTHOR'S NOTE:-

Hey lovely people 🖤

Today's chapter was a bit different and you might find it a bit difficult to understand..

This sort of contained a glimpse of my raw feelings so I just wrote whatever came to my mind 🥲

This chapter can be a bit cliche as I am a antiromantic🥲

I hope you all are doing well💕

Take care of yourself 🐣✨

Exams aane wale hai and mujhse pdha nahi ja raha hai bhai🙂

I love you all and just know life can be hard but you aren't alone 🖤

Sabke liye ek Raj bana hai.. he can be a lover, friend, bestfriend anyone you just have to let the right person in sometimes 🤍

Life is beautiful it may not seem that way sometimes..it's like a rollercoaster it has its ups and downs so sometimes you just have to sit back and try to enjoy it..💕

Chalo chalo enough gyaan ab 😂👍

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I love you all💫

--Sam signing off 🍃