Fate's Magic

30:- Us

AUTHOR'S POV:-

After everything sorted out there. Samay bhaiya took Tara with him in his car and raj took suhaana with her after her various

The car ride back home was awfully silent. Suhaana expected raj to bring his behaviour up but he stayed silent making suhaana grow angrier.

"Suhaana.. Are you hurt too bad? Did he touch you?? Are you hurt too bad?? I have fixed everything with the news thing and it has been removed"

Raj said with worry evident in his voice. His hands clenched the steering wheel.

"Why do you care " suhaana replied with pure coldness in her voice.

"Not now suhaana. I almost lost you. I almost lost the person whom I love the most "

replied raj knowing that he messed up but the only thing he was worried about was her safety .

Suhaana demanded to stop the car but Raj didn't listen. After asking for a few times she moved towards the steering wheel and turned it harshly.

The car almost hit the tree on the side walk. Raj pressed the break just in time.

Suhaana got off the car. Raj cursed under his breath and held her hand making her stop.

SUHAANA RAGHUVANSHI POV:-

"You are pretending like everything was fine Raj..? You felt like you will loose me na..you know what that's what I have been feeling since the past month. Just because I said ki I understand it never meant that it didn't hurt.

I held back my tears every time I said it's okay, I held my words back when I was overthinking that maybe it's all my fault and maybe you deserve better and I can be replaced.

You know why I feel every single time that you might replace me?? It's because i know how easy it is to replace me..I am nothing special and leaving me will not change your life..kabhi kisi ki life mein koi change aaya hi nahi

Every single night I was awake thinking that maybe I am the issue...Raj I understand it was hard for you but nere liye bhi hard tha..

Hard tha to see the person I love so dearly be distant, see the person whom I love the most change..the thought ki jis insaan ne mujhe hasna sikhaya hai vohi chala jayega..chod kar.

I tried to understand hard very hard brr your changed behaviour hurt..very bad..

You promised ki we will get through everything together right..ab kahan gaye vo vaade??

Why dont you understand ki it's killing me seeing you like this..Nahi dekha ja raha ye mujhse raj..

Kyu..kyu..hamesha mein hi samjhun..kyu hamesha mein hi efforts daalun..kyu hamesha mein hi hurt hu..

Kyu hamesha mein akale go through karun..kyu hamesha mein hi attention, love aur care maang ne ke liye guilty feel karun..
Kya itna hak nahi tha mera..itni expectations nahi rakh skti mein..

Why is it always me who gets broken..
I don't want to be healed..I don't want to trust and care...
I don't want anything to do with anyone anymore..

Raj meine samjha ki something was going on..but kya itna..itna sa bhi hai nahi tha mera..kya itna sa bhi trust nahi tha aapko mujhpe ki mujhe atleast bataye kya hua..

Tut chuki thi mein..i was numb..
Jisse umeed thi ki vo smjhenge..vo nahi samjh pa rahe the..
Jisse mujhse umeed thi ki mein usse samjhungi.. mein unhe nahi samjh pa rahi thi..
I was numb...khokli ho chuki thi andar se..

Everytime you said ki I am overthinking and thinking too much..no matter how much I tried to believe your words and hoped ki I am thinking wrong..

The thought that maybe I irritated you and I annoyed you always hit me like a rock every single time.