I am having weird dreams at night. One time, I dreamt that I was in a ferris wheel with the director guy (sorry, I forgot his name) and he kissed me! Kakameet ko pa lang sa person and I'm already having these weird and disturbing thoughts about him. This is not right, di ba? Baka naman pala may girlfriend yung guy or.. baka gay si director guy! Omg!
"Hey, are you okay?" tanong ni Patty sa akin. Wednesday na ngayon at third day na namin sa university. Fortunately, Patty and I both have free time during lunchtime so we get to eat lunch together. I have friends na rin naman in my block section but they were all schoolmates in high school so I feel a bit out-of-place whenever I'm with them especially when they mention certain memories from their previous year. I mean, like, hello? I am here?!?!
"Wala, naalala ko lang yung panaginip ko kagabi," I told her. She knows naman about my dreams and she is convinced that I am attracted to the guy.. which I am most certainly not.
"Dude, the sexual tension between you two is so thick you can cut it with a knife!" she exclaimed. Again with this issue.
"Dude, for the nth time, there's nothing there!" sabi ko sa kanya.
"Can't you see the way he stares at you? He. Fucking. Wants. You!" sabi niya sa akin. Tinakpan ko naman ang bibig niya dahil masyado nang nagiging vulgar ang words niya.
"Dude, you came from the US. Language is much more vulgar there than here," sabi niya sa akin. Truth is, I can't remember anything from the US. I asked Mom for some photos and napakita naman niya sa akin iyon. There was one time na I was in a beach and there was a guy beside me. He looked familiar and Mom told me that he's my friend there. Maybe that friend of mine could help me but I couldn't squeeze his name out of my head. Is it Jake? James? Jordan? Basta, I remember that it starts with the letter J.. or is it a G?
"I know, but still. Baka pala may nakakakilala sa kanya dito tapos ipasa sa kanya itong pinag-uusapan natin," sabi ko sa kanya.
"It's okay. It's his fault din naman. He's like a creepy stalker and we haven't dropped a name yet so it's fine," sabi naman niya sa akin. Napa-iling na lang ako at tinuloy ang pag-kain ko.
Bigla naman naming napansin na medyo lumakas ang bulungan sa loob ng kainan nang tumunog ang chime sa may pinto. Napalingon naman ako doon sa kakapasok lang at nakita ko na si director guy iyon at yung lalaking basketball player na tinawag akong Heaven. Are they friends? Ibig sabihin ba talaga e may kamukha akong kakilala nila?
"Hey Patty!" sabi noong basketball player. Wait, they know each other? Bakit di man lang ito binabanggit ni Patty sa akin. Well, I never asked and she was not there when this guy approached me so..
"Hey Kuya Jax!" bati naman ni Patty doon sa lalaki.
"You know each other?" bulong ko sa kanya.
"Yes, boyfriend siya ng ate ko," sagot niya.
What? Small world, huh.
"Oh, hey there." Biglang napatigil si Kuya Jax nang makita niya na kasama ko si Patty. Isang matipid na "hi" na lang ang isinagot dahil nanliliit ako sa tingin noong director guy sa akin. Why did I even forget his name?
"Theo, let's sit here!" pag-aya naman ni Kuya Jax. Ayun! I remember na! Theo ang name niya. Buti na lang nabanggit din ang pangalan niya before magkaroon ng embarrassing moment.
"I'll just order take-out," sabi niya kahit na hindi pa tinatanggal ang titig sa akin. Pakiramdam ko talaga e malalagutan ako ng hininga dahil sa tingin niya. Hindi ba niya naiisip iyon?
Nang makaalis na siya ay nilapitan naman ako ni Kuya Jax.
"Pasensya ka na don ha, medyo nasugatan kasi kaya ganyan yan. Hayaan mo na muna, wag mo muna irereklamo for sexual harassment please. He means nothing," sabi niya sa akin.
"Pwede bang.. wag na nga lang," sabi ko. I don't know if I should ask him about the one who looks like me pero I am really curious about her.
"What is it? You can ask me anything," aniya. I looked straight into his eyes at tinanong ko ang tungkol doon sa babae.
***
"Are you okay, babe?" tanong ni Ran sa akin nang magkita kami pagkatapos ng klase ko.
"I can't forget about her, Ran! It's like she's haunting me!" sabi ko. I can't seem to forget about Heaven's doppelganger. She has the same features—the same eyes, nose, cheek bones, smile and voice. Ang pagkakaiba lang ay pumuti ng kaunti itong si Eve at nag-iba rin ang kulay ng kanyang buhok. Pati na rin ang ugali nila ay iba. This one is more carefree. Si Heaven kasi ay halatang kalkulado lahat ng galaw.
"Nagtanong nga rin daw iyon kay Jax tungkol kay Heaven. Hindi talaga niya kilala si Heaven. Don't stress yourself," sabi niya sa akin tapos ay inayos ang nakatikwas na buhok ko.
"Parang kinakain ko lahat ng sinabi ko kay Theo. Parang siya nga si Heaven. May possibility naman na nagka-amnesia siya dba?"
"There is pero come on, hindi ba sasabihin iyon ng mga magulang niya sa kanya?"
"Maybe her parents want her to forget about her past!"
"Walang magulang na ganoon," sabi niya sa akin at pinilit akong pakalmahin. He's right. Walang parent na hahayaang maging clueless ang kanyang anak.
"I'll go find her parents," sabi ko sabay kuha lahat ng gamit ko. I need to find out the truth.
