Help Me God

Help

Today is Friday. I'm going to Allysons house. I'm going to spend the night. A sleepover, that's what she called it. Ive never been or had one before. I hope we don't paint our nails and talk about boys all night. I walk out of school and head to the Dodgers house. I pack some clothes quickly, then head over to Allysons.
But on the way I run into a group similar to the ones on the back of the bus. Only this one is of four males. Same supplier though. They all are sitting around with some bottles. Just drinks today.
They call me over.
"Hey you. Come here."
I walk over. A drink won't hurt. I pick up a bottle and take a swing.
That stuff is strong. I even have a hard time holding it down. I decide its time to go, I don't want to drink a lot, and once I stark drinking I wont stop. I start to walk off. One of the boys grabs my arm.
"Woah. Where do you think you are going?"
"Away from you."
I hear a little slur in their voices.
All four of them get up. The biggest one announces out to me.
"No you ain't either. Your staying right here princess. Youre ours."
He grabs my arm roughly.
"Ow. Let go."
I try to free myself but can't.
He starts to take off my shirt.
"Stop. Let me go."
One of them behind me put their hands on my bare waist.
"No you had a drink of our drinks. You owe us."
I try to free myself but can't. Struggling under their grips I begin to panic. They begin undoing my pants. I get one of my hands free and start throwing punches. One makes contact and I see it hit the biggest. He smacks me hard on my face. Pain rushes through my face. My cheek burns where he hit me. I am down to my undergarments. We stand behind trees. So nobody can see them or me. All four of them have their hands all over me. They don't try to be gentle. They don't care if they hurt me. I realize soon I'm completely bare. I struggle harder under their killer grip. I can feel them now. Not just their hands. I feel them. Tears pour down my face. I continue shouting at them to stop.
I hear a zipper as one unzips his pants. I feel them tear my pants off. The one with his pants unzipped starts to push me to the ground, not fast because then the other ones would have to let go of me from the impact. They hold me to the ground as I feel him force his way in me. He moans. He thrust once, twice, three times. Again and again. Each time send pain up through me. I feel as he practically rips me apart tearing open my insides. At some point his face changes, he moans even louder he starts to struggle hold himself up. I feel something leak but I have no clue what it is. A little after that he switches with another guy. And he keeps going in circles from there. 
I want them to stop. I want their hands to stay off me. I don't want to bear their voices in my ear. I don't want to feel their rough fingers on my skin. I don't want to feel this way. Why do I feel this way? Why are they smiling? I don't want to see their smiles. I don't want to smell their breathe. I want them to stop. Make them stop please. Someone. Anyone help me. I need someone to help.
It becomes hard to breathe.
Soon I stop struggling. I stop shouting. After a while it gets dark. They continue. Taking turns. Joking about me.
"Oh she actually has boobs."
They compare me to other people i don't know.
Sometime after it gets dark they leave. They don't bother dressing me back. They just leave.
They leave me crying in the woods. Woods I have never been in.
Why? Why did they do this? I feel sick. I can't breathe. My body hurts. It all hurts so much. Make it all go away please. Please someone. Please just help me. Why is everything shaking? Why am I shaking? I want it all to stop. I want the smell to go away. Even though they are gone I can still feel them. I can feel where they slapped me. I can feel where they touched me. I can feel all of it. Make it all go away please.
I force myself over to my phone after a while. My cheek feels swollen. Tear streaks cake my face. I stopped crying long ago, too paralyzed to actually do anything. I just want to leave here. To go be buried six feet below ground. I can't find my clothes or my dufle bag. I think they may of threw them somewhere. Or maybe they kept them as souvenirs. Sick people.
I feel sick. I spit at the ground.
I click the power button on my phone and see that it is 10:22 I left the house at 5:45. I passed here at around 6:15. Sat here for about an hour trying to stop the thoughts. That's still 2 hours.
I feel sick again. But I know I'm not really sick. I check and see i have 34 missed calls. 14 from Allyson. All the rest from various Dodgers. I see I have messages too from them.
*text*
Allysons
Hey
You on your way?
Where are you?
Austin said you should be here by now.
Hey where are you?
Scarlet?
Are you ok?
WHERE ARE YOU?!?
CALL ME NOW!!!!!!!
THATS IT. IM CALLING THE DODGERS.
WHERE ARE YOU?!?! ARE YOU OK?!?!?
Austin's say about the same thing. I press the call button on Austin's contact.
It rings once then he answers almost immediately.
His voice sounds worried and angry and relieved all at the same time.
"Scarlet? Are you there? Are you ok?"
"Mum" its a I can manage right now.
He sighs a sigh of relief loudly.
"Where are you?"
I begin to choke on air. I can't face him. I can't do it. I just can't.
"Shhshh its ok Scar. Just tell me where you are."
After a few minutes of me sobbing and him soothing me I squeak out to him.
"Austin can you come get me? Just you?"
"Uhh," I assume has looking at his parents he probably has me on speaker, " yea ill be there. Mom and Dad will wait here for you. Where are you?"
"And Austin can you grab me something?"
"Yea. Sure what is it?"
"Don't let them hear."
After a few seconds he presses a button. I hear the phone move closer to his ear.
"Yea what is it?"
"I need some clothes."
Just as soon as I say that it starts to rain.
"Oh ok. Um sure ill be there soon Scar. But where are you?"
"That bridge by the woods."
"Yea I know where your talking about ill be there in a minute."
Neither of us hang up we just sit there. Well I just sit there I hear him pack clothes. Then he gets in a truck and starts it. I know its a truck that's all they drive.
Soon I see head lights and a truck nearing a stop close to me. A person gets out.
"Scarlet. Where are you?"
I shine my phone in the direction of Austin's booming voice.
"Over hear."
I am laying in the cold rain.
"Austin?"
"Yea?"
"Dont look just toss me some clothes."
"Uh ok."
He throw a big shirt at me. I look at it. Its not mine but I dont care. As if reading my mind he says.
"Its mine i didn't want to go through your stuff."
It comes down to my lower thigh. Right above my knees. It must be big on him.
"Can I come now?"
"Yea."
He makes his way swiftly to my side.
"Are you ok? What happened? Here lets get out of this rain."
He picks me up and carries me to the truck. He places me in the passenger seat. He walks over in front of the headlights. He looks scary.
He gets in and turns the truck around. Then faces me.
"Ok. What happened?"
"Im sorry. I really am Austin. Im sorry."
"Ok but what happened?"
"There were four boys here having a drink. So I had a of sip before heading to Allysons. But then they all ganged up on me and held me there. They would let me go Austin. They- I'm sorry Austin. I'm so sorry."
Why? Why couldn't I just have walked on?
He takes me in an embrace and holds me close to him. Caresses my hair and whispers to me.
"Its ok nobody will hurt you anymore. Its ok Scar. Its ok."
I sob more as he strokes my wet hair. After so long I sit back up. I have no more tears left. My throat hurts and my head is killing me. I look at Austin. He looks terrifying. I have never seen someone so angry. I flinch. He starts driving and a vibrating sounds goes off.
I pull out my phone and check it. Its Allyson.
I press Answer.
"Are you ok?"
"Yes."
"You scared me to death Scarlet."
I know I shouldn't feel it but I do. I felt glad to hear that. Nobody has been worried about me like this.
"Im sorry Allyson. I just ran into some people and stuff happened."
"Who did you run into?"
"The boys oe the back of the bus."
I choke out.
She gasp.
"Oh my gosh."
"Im going to have to call you later Allyson."
"Im so sorry Scarlet. Im so so sorry."
"Its ok."
I lie. I lie not only to Allyson but I also lie to myself. Only I never believe the lies I tell myself.
When I walk into the house I try to go straight to my room. But am pulled into hugs.
Questions over whelm me.
"Can Austin answer them. I just want to go to sleep."
They both look at each other than Austin.
Mrs.Dodger nods her head.
"Yes sweetie. Go to bed. Love you."
I head to my room. I throw myself on the bed. Wrapping my arms around my legs I begin to ball.
Why would anybody do such a terrible thing?
Why do I feel this bad?
Do I think that I am not safe?
No i am. I know I am. Austin told me.
But hes a boy. Just like those others.
My mind argues with itself. My toes are cold and numb cause Im gripping my legs so tight.
My oversize shirt is soaked but I Dont care. My chest hurts, and it begins to become hard to breathe. I suck in air as hard as I can. I grip my sheets and shirt and anything else in my reach as hard as I can. It begins hard to stay sitting up. I fall back onto my bed. So this is what its like to go crazy? Why cant I just disappear? All this would stop then.
I cry and talk to myself for a while then a knock comes at my door.
I look up to see Austin and Allyson standing there.
They both come towards me and wrap me with a hug. I Dont move. I just welcome the hug and sit in their warm embrace.