Help Me God

Home Sweet Home

I am being helped out to the car. Austin practically carries me. Mr.Dodger holds the door open. Mrs.Dodger watches making sure I dont need anymore help. After about forty five minutes we pull into the drive way, there wasn't much traffic they just don't live close to the hospital. That means they drove over an hour and half everyday, just to see me. They could've left me. But they didn't.
They do love you.
They just feel bad for you. Plus they get paid for keeping you here.
They arent in it for the money. Are they?
Allyson, Eden, and Lucas all stop by. Allyson talks about her date, he seems like a pretty nice guy. But I still want to meet him. And Eden shows me his scar. I apologize and he simple replies with a Nah its cool. And smiles.
Im excused from school for tomorrow. So I sleep in late. Austin goes to school but I stay. And honestly im ok with that. I drift in and out of consciences most of the day. Until around 3 when Austin gets off the bus then we talk, he says I didn't really miss anything in the classes. Then by 5 we all get ready for church.
"So Austin does the whole church know?"
He nods his head. "But they've been praying for you to recover. They know you didn't start the fight, they dont agree with the drinking part though. Not everybody knows that but nobody agrees that you should drink."
I know you all dont think I should drink. I didn't think I needed to consult you all about my life.
I simply nod my head along with what he says.
We pull into the church parking lot at 5:47. When I get out only Lucas is there. I wish I could play basketball with them but I can't. Maybe they wont play it. I limp over to Lucas.
"Hey whats up?" Casually I wave my hand up.
"Oh nothin'much. So uh I meant to ask you a question."
"Yes?"
"Well what happened the other night? Why did you try leaving?"
I stand there silently.
"Well I saw," I ponder for the right words, "I saw Austin get pumbled, Eden was stabbed, and you were shot. The same way my mother died."
He just stands there in silence. How do I explain everything. The pain i felt. Thinking they all were dead is the worst pain I have ever felt. Even more than when my dad left me. Or when my mom tried killing me.
"Im sorry about your nightmare and your mom. If you ever want to talk we can."
Ask him. Ask him Why?
I debate whether to ask him but before I can Mr.Dodger calls us all in for a lesson.
"Tonight we talk about Gods grace. His love for us. Why he sent his only begotten son down to die for you and me. And how salvation is not earned but a gift from him to us for Jesus's death."
Everybody seems to nod in agreement.
"I would like to start off with a few songs. First one is What Love Looks Like by Among The Thirsty."
He plays the lyrics and song on the laptop and projects it onto a screen. Everyone starts to sing.
When the song is over he starts to speak again.
"Dont worry about anything. Gods grace takes care of all our worries. Trust in him. This next song is called Shoulders by Kings and Country."
He starts a song and a piano starts to play.
Soon the songs are over. Then Mr.Dodger starts to speak.
"God loves us all," he pauses and looks everyone in the eye, "So much that he sent his only son to Earth to die for us."
Im not sure how that shows he loves us. As if to answer he comtinues. "It would be like someone loving you so much they would give up their most prize possession for you. How amazing would that feel? That God gave up his only some for you? God gave his most prize possession for you and me."
Mr.Dodger continues. "His grace can not be earned. He gives it to us out of his love. Dont turn down such a wonderful gift. You wouldn't see a beautiful gift and not accept it. His gift is eternal. Never ending. His grace saves you. If you were out in The ocean and someone threw you a life preserver why would you deny it? Why would you chose to be left stranded and lost?"
Nobody should be lost.
You arent lost. You know exactly where you are. Living your life how you want.
"His gift last for all eternity. When you die, his gift, his grace saves you. Allowing you to spend all eternity in Heaven with him."
Everybody nods their heads. Like that's what they want to do.
"If you already have accepted his gift it should be your mission to tell others of his greatness. If you havent, then think. Why? Why not accept such love?"
Why not accept the undying love?