They stay in and talk soon its mainly me Allyson and John talking.
"Yea well season six is still better."
Allyson turns to John in disbelief. We both throw up a hand in his face. Angrily we both reply in synch.
"How?? Season 5 is better. He defeats Lucifer. Than comes back."
John throws both his hands up. Hes so fabulous. (Not really he is straight we just joke with him.)
"Well Season 6 explains what happened and they all get into a fight."
I break the conversation. "Now that I think about it. Season 10 is pretty good. Mr.Fabulous"
They both mutter in agreement.
"As much as I hate to end this debate of Supernatural seasons. The doctor needs to see you soon."
My mood drastically shatters. As Mrs.Dodgers words sink in. Oh yea. We are still in a hospital. Now I am fully aware once again of Austin, Eden, and Lucas's long faces.
Everybody gets up to leave. Austin stays behind. Eden and Lucas are last. They both give me a hug and promise to come back when the doctor lets them.
Austin lingers in the door way. My eyes meet his gaze.
Tell him. Tell him now.
"Austin please-"
He holds up a hand to stop me.
"No Scarlet. Dont say anything. Im sorry. Im so sorry. I didn't mean for this to happen. I should've protected you. I should've walked you over to Allysons house. I shouldve been a better person, a better brother and not got you into this."
He throws his hands up in frustration.
A burning sensation fills my eyes. My throat closes.
You wuss. Your so weak. Bowing down to that? Come on your not that weak..
Your very strong and know that you put him through this. Now you want to fix it. You are a good person.
No a good person wouldnt of started all this.
Everybody falls short of the will of God. Thats why we forgive. Ourselves and others.
I wish the fighting would stop. Fine I feel bad and so does he but he shouldn't. I got it. It doesn't matter if im a good person or not. Cause I am not a good person and I know it.
"Austin no. Please dont think that. You are an amazing brother. I didn't mean for all this to happen. Honestly. You couldn't of have known this would happen. Please. Austin. Dont blame yourself."
Begging him i look into his eyes. A tear runs down my cheek making a path for another one. So a whole river flows. He comes over and hesitates.
What does he think he will hurt me? Physically or emotionally? Its hard to tell.
Then he decides to pull me in an embrace. We both grip each other tight. I stiffen. A sharp pain pierces my chest. In different places. But I dont dare say anything to make him think that he hurt me. Soon the doctor walks in. And he has to leave. He whispers in my ear before he leaves.
"I love you Scarlet. Dont ever doubt that. God will guide us both on the twisted path we call life."
He then kisses my cheek like an actually brother would do. Brother. I like that word. Brother. I just let it sink in.
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SpiritualTim walked out of his family of a 4 year old and his loving wife. Kaylee, distraught over the loss of her husband shot her child and then herself. I am that 4 year old. Or used to be anyways. It has been 11 years since then and i have since been pla...
